A Magical World of my soul

Barrier of loneliness

2008-07-19T02:23:00.002+08:00

Sense of loneliness lingers in me from time to time.. Sometimes I feel like no one in this world truly understands me. Is it because no one actually knows all aspects of me but myself? At the same time, sometimes I don't even understand myself.

My inner thoughts seem to be entrapped in a vacuum, an apparent impenetrable barrier that separates the real "me" from others. Many times, I tried to break through the barrier when I see glimpses of light at its peripheral but I seems to be unable to break through the barrier totally.

How I wish someone will appear one day and try to penetrate from outside the barrier on one of the spots which I tried breaking through half-way, and discover the real me in this cold vacuum...

Dinner @ Chomchom

2008-05-19T04:08:00.002+08:00

Met up with Gilbert and Alex for dinner at Chomchom yesterday. We ordered a very big spread of local delights (Kangkong, satay, stingray, chicken wings, shells, oyster egg) and ate to our fullest. It was a great meal.

Then explored a bit around the area to find nice chill-out place. To our dismay, the ktv pubs are quite "uncle" there and they play mainly hokkien song. (not that we have anything against hokkien songs, but we all sing chinese songs, so it might be a little out of place). Then decided to just go Bliss @ punggol park to have some wine. Jonathan joined us for bliss. After that we found that it's warm and humid there and decided to go KTV @ hougang green. However, the ktv rates were not favourable so we ended up drinking beers at the coffee shop. I didn't drink much and was quite quiet. I guess perhaps I'm shagged out by the travelling.

As I was walking with Alex, we discussed abit about my condition and me getting a wheelchair. He's very supportive and shared with me positive opinions about using a wheelchair. I touched that he said that even if I'm on a wheelchair, they will still bring me around to chill out and taking care of me. In fact I know that they will because we are best buddies. They are concerned about my condition because they realized that I'm been deteriorting quite a bit recently..

Walking around is indeed more difficult for me now and it gets dangerous sometimes, especially when I'm alone. I'll consider a wheelchair more seriously these few days.. Well, I won't get melanchonic over this, it's holidays afterall.

I just ordered 3 books on kinokuniya webbook:
1. The little prince
2. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
3. 20 Greatest Philosophy books

I think they will be delivered to me on wed or thurs. Looking forward to reading them :)

Degenerationnnnn...........

2008-05-18T05:05:00.002+08:00

I found this blogskin and I simply love it, especially when it's coupled with the song Sanctus 2 by Libera.

Went to Hougang point to have dinner with Jonathan and Alex. It's like about a week since I last stepped out of my house. I was shocked that just crossing the road made me so tired, along with the worry that some cars would horn me for crossing the road so slowly. Thank goodness that I reached the other end in time. I felt so bad that Jon and Alex waited for me for quite long.

Then settled down for dinner and drinks with them. I always enjoy their company. Though I'm a person of little words, I'm always so amused to be part of chit-chat with them, time just flies. After the drink, as we were leaving kopithiam, I lost my balance and fell down. The other people around me thought I was drunk. I was not and my buddies have to help me explain that I'm inconvenient in my movements. They helped me up and as I slowly walked on, the on-lookers accused them for not holding onto me while I walked. It's not the case!! It's because they know that I prefer to walk without support. Jonathan and Alex, I'm so sorry for that and sorry that I did not turn around to explain to the on-lookers. I'm quite disappointed that I did not have to "courage" to do that.

Then we continued to walk to my house. The short distance was hell for me. I couldn't feel that I was walking. My walking speed was so much slower that I've to cross the road with the time for 2 traffic greenman. I was panting and sweating just walking home. This is really bad. I've weakened noticeably since the holidays started. Although I appeared nonchalent, I'm sad down inside.

I started to ponder if I should get on a wheelchair. With my reduced ability to walk smoothly, I realized that I've developed some kind of phobia to go out and move around in public. Now, the thought of me having to cross the road panick me. I wonder if a wheelchair will make me feel more secure. I've been avoiding this consideration because I want to walk as long as I can and I don't want to burdened my family and friend. Whenver I think of a good point of using wheelchair, many negative feelings and thoughts overwhelme me.. Guess I'll just monitor for the time being to decide what is best for me..

sudden return

2008-05-16T03:26:00.002+08:00

It has been a really long while since I last blogged. Anyway, for some reason, I'm back to blog again.

Having my summer vacation now. It's so long.. fortunately I'm taking up a summer class philosophy and it's starting in about 5 weeks time. Can't wait for it to start. I've been staying at home all these while. Kinda feel unsafe to go out.

I've been thinking quite alot lately. My body seems to get noticeably weaker again. It's getting harder to walk about. My body has been feeling stiff all over. My mood is kinda affected by it.. started to consider using a wheelchair again. It's a struggle inside me, hope I'll see the light soon.

School wise, I can't help but keep thinking about my 2nd major. I'm considering between finance and marketing. Honestly speaking, I'm not really interested in finance, or rather I've not really been exposed to finance so it's a new thing for me. However, it seems like something useful to learn and get into and the prospect is quite good. For marketing, I've some interest in it but it seems like the career in marketing requires active interaction with people and creativity, which are some factors that I'm weak in. Furthermore I can't imagine myself doing a marketing job. I hate to coordinate events and talking with external people. Anyway, somehow, it seems like I'm tending towards finance. Initially I thought it was because of Bernard that I wanted to take finance. I guess it's not the case. It seems like it is something I want to try. It'll definitely be challenging for me, but I believe it's worth trying. I'll consider for a few more days before confirming my choice.

Community Service

2007-05-22T01:03:00.000+08:00

I never think that I'm a community service person. Ever since LTB, I've been associated or involved in community service project. After the LTB module ended, I continued on to offer administrative support on voluntary basis to a charity organisation. After i completed my own community service, the manager offered me to stay as project coordinator/intern for the 2 youthforcause project teams doing community service projects with the organisation.

It doesn't end with that. I was elected as Vice-President to SMU Rotaract, a service club that is actively involved in community service. Thus my world revolved around community service. Last time, i used to think that because of my disability, the things i can offer to the community is limited. I had the impression that community service involves moving around alot. Apparently, it is not true, I can actually contribute to the community in my own way. In fact, helping others is the greatest thing to do. Seeing the joy that you bring to others is really great!!!!

First encounter on wheelchair

2007-05-14T20:04:00.000+08:00

I tried on a light wheelchair to move around Junction 8 on Monday. Sherena has been encouraging me to take up a wheelchair for travelling long distances and coincidentally her friend using a light wheelchair dropped by and Sherena arranged for me to try on her friend’s wheelchair.

The first 15 min or so moving on the wheelchair in the office and lobby was ok, probably because it’s on flat terrain and there was no one around. After sufficient warm-up I decided to head for J8 shopping mall downstairs. I realised that many people was looking at me or I would say peeking at me. probably thinking “oh poor boy, so young on wheelchair le”. (I do look young even though I’m already 23 years old.) The feeling wasn’t great, I felt slightly inferior, to be so low in the public, hidden among the crowd.

I understand that the sympathic look indicate their care and concern, I’m just not used to it. or may I just overly sensitive.

When I tried to roll up the small slope into the lobby while I was heading back to office, I wasn’t able to do do quickly and the automatic sliding door was closing on me. Kinda scary, fortunately 2 kind ladies quickly stood near the sensor to open to door. I wonder if I would have been crushed by the door, or if the door would be crushed by me.

Then Sherena came down and asked me to try the very steep slope leading to Bishan MRT. A not so good experience. The slope was extremely steep when I looked at it siting on the wheelchair. I didn’t manage to get up the slope. I can;t row my wheelchair fast enough and as soon as i release the wheel to roll up, I was sliding back. I was just just gripping tightly to the wheel in the middle of the slope (actually only 1/4). Again there’s a emphathetic and kind gentleman who pushed me up the slope. If not I would have rolled down.

Then I’ve to wheel down the slope to go back to the office. Going down was equally scary. I was worried that I might just flew off the wheelchair if I let go too much. So I was there gripping to the wheel tightly and letting go slowly over many intervals. Despite Sherena motivating me to let go I can’t do it. I was too scared. Only let go fully when I was near the flat surface.

Quite a bad experience. The more cruel part is I realized that a wheelchair is so limiting in improving my mobility. Yes, I do move faster than walking but it doesn’t last. My hands got tired quite fast. I started panting after pushing for 30 minutes. Furthermore, once there’s a steep slope, I would be done for. Sherena said I can always ask people for help if I encounter steep slope and in fact I won’t encounter steep slope all the time.

Hmm, guess there’s many tradeoffs to move faster, hard to consider. In actual fact, I don’t want to be on a wheelchair yet. logically it’s better for me but emotionally I want to walk as long as I can. Even if I fall down, I still wanna walk, walk till the day I can;t walk anymore..
Dilenmasssss!!!!!

Once in a blue moon

2007-04-08T17:05:00.000+08:00

Realized that I've not been blogging since eons.. actually just about 6 mths?? maybe.. So I'm back to take a look..

Think no one's reading my blog anymore, so i hereby declare death of my blog. lol.. Well..

Nothing's much about school, more or less adapted to SMU's culture.. not sure if i'm already integrated into it.. But in the first place, what is there to adapt to? Am I giving myself excuses? Just prepare and speak out in class and chiong all the way for projects.. and prepare for TONNES of projectsssss meetingsssss......

Anyway, think the glory of my academic life is over.. The feeling of "I am good in everything, I'm smart.. I'll definitely score etc" I had in poly is not longer here now.. Things are just not right here. Subjects I thought were easy became hard. Subjects i tot i'll do well in, but did not. Surprisingly, subjects I didn't think I'll do well in, I did well.. It is so freaky strange.. Is it due to complacence??? Probably

I'm supposed to be STUDYING for exams now, which are just a few days away..No drive though.. I better go find the drive now.. ciao...

Happy Shopping

2006-12-29T20:52:00.000+08:00

As usual I can't sleep yesterday. It was 9 am today and I was still bright awake. Decided not to sleep to reset my body clock. School is starting soon and sleeping at 4am and waking up at 4pm would be disastrous. Guess what I did? I went shopping, spent $200 plus. Argh. I'm such a money-spender. Bought a cool slim jade-ceramic salonstraight with a nice LCD screen and adjustable temperature. Tried on a few bundles of my hair, result is quite effective. Also bought 2 bermudas and a cap from 77th street. Hee. Well I shall take it as my Birthday Present for myself. After treating my buddies I'll have to stop spending.. got to reserve some money so that I can have a nice term 2 at SMU (everything is so exp).

Looking forward to my birthday celebration with my buddies (the best friends I ever know) hee =]

2007 academic resolution

2006-12-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

Time really flies.. My one month term break is coming to an end in just a few days. My birthday celebration will mark the end of my slacking days. (hehe.. *hint*).

Hmm, I'm suppose to reflect on the under-performance in my grades.. but guess I didn't do much about it. The relevelation of my results did somehow "wake" me up. I believe the primary reason for the below expected is I didn't work very hard.. imagine revision just 1 day before. With this the B average grade I got seem quite miraculous to some extent. Well, I must said I did learn something good from the subjects. Initially, I thought that I would not be too bothered about grades as long as I learnt something. However, I'm wrong. I'm super bothered about my grades. It's an habit I developed in poly days. Thus, I can't let this underperformance continue.

So my new year resolution is to aim for A for every subjects and score A- average at least for the coming term, to push my GPA to 3.3 and above by the next semester, and 3.5 and above for subsequent terms. Some action plan is to participate more in class discussion, plan properly for projects, do sufficient revision for all tests and exams.....

Resurrection

2006-12-22T06:52:00.000+08:00

Hey, I've finally posted a new entry since many months ago.

Took this opportunity before school reopens to give my blog a new look. Death note is so cool. L and Light are so damn smart..

SMU Convocation

2006-08-20T02:26:00.000+08:00

Went for SMU Convocation today. Quite boring though. We were brought to another ballroom which we watched the live telecast of the actual ceremony. No one was paying attention to it lo. Then second part was a award ceremony for the orientation camp. Ok, I didn't go for the camp so I was groupless and the award ceremony has no meaning for me. Felt so isolated.. one lonely person sitting there, when everyone around me knew each other during camp.. Furthermore, I was not even given a group for the convocation. I'm being forgotten...

Fortunately, the "concert" was good, alot of talented vocalists displayed their magical singing voices.. Just that my left ear was suffering alot due to the high volume. After working at call centre for 3 months, my ear's threshold level to loud sound seems to decrease by alot. I'm hearing alot of funny sounds in my ear when exposed to loud volume.

To add on to it, the ballroom was so cold and my bladder was accumulating.. Worse, I realised that there's no support in front of me to help me stand up.. I've to bear with my nature call.. The chance came when everyone was requested to stand up and the person infront pushed his chair backwards.. Good, there's support now. So I seized the chance, stood up took my bag and rushed to the toilet.

Misfortune once again.. I tripped onto a large electric plug as I was walking.. Fell in a kneel position and not able to stand up.. I struggled but legs were too weak. No one offered to help me every though so many ppl walked pass me. Finally one kind soul came and asked. I told him I could not stand up. He went to find the facilitator. a few facilitator came to my rescue with a medic box and I became the next centre of attraction. So embarrassing.!!! Now more than 10% of freshie discovered that I can't even stand up on my own.. But who cares..

Anyway, so excited about school re-opening, got to bid for modules on monday.

2006-08-16T17:08:00.000+08:00

German Kid Totally FREAKS OUT over a Video Game!

LOL, is he mad?

Ouran High Host Club

2006-08-16T02:37:00.000+08:00

I just discovered a new anime series "Ouran High Host Club" by chance. hehe. It's a very nice, funny and interesting series. So nice that I completed 17 episodes in just merely 2 days. lol. Here's a synopsis, courtesy of Wikipedia

"Ouran High School Host Club is a story involving a wide range of characters, which takes place primarily at Ouran High School where they all attend. The school is an exclusive institution reserved only for students from wealthy and affluent families. One exception, however, is scholarship student Haruhi Fujioka, a young girl from a lower-middle class family who tends to have a low threshold for gender identity.

One day, she begins to search through the vast campus for a quiet place to study, where she stumbles upon the Host Club - a group of six attractive male students who spend their time charming and entertaining the school's girls for profit. During their first meeting, Haruhi is shocked at their behavior which causes her to accidentally knock over a very expensive vase valued at ¥8,000,000. This causes Haruhi to contract a massive debt with the Host Club. In order to pay off the large sum, she is employed and eventually promoted to be one of the hosts of the club as a way to pay off her debt."

2006-08-12T19:09:00.000+08:00

JunYang, 1st album. Sha Sha De Shui? 沙沙的谁

This is one very nice song by Junyang. In fact alot of songs in his album are quite nice.. Just that sometimes, I thought I'm hearing JJ Lin singing.. But with careful listening is it actually quite different, just that they have similar pitch.. No matter what, it's nice. I've always like to hear Jy sing since I first heard him on Project Super Star...

Jy seems to get more and more good-looking. Didn't know he's so handsome..

2006-08-12T14:59:00.000+08:00

So what have I been doing recently? All i could think of are the videos and animes I watched.. and it's seems quite alot... So just let me recall those that I have already completed...

First is a very nice anime called Erementar Gerad, I suspect it has some relation to the anime "Air" coz the main female character Revely looks quite familiar.. Some synopsis of this anime, courtesy of animenfo.com

"Eden Raid was a lost tribe of magic users, but it started to grow in size again. They have the power to materialze into strong weapons with their "Pleasure"
One day on his Air Pirate journeys, Coud find a beautiful girl who is sealed in a tomb. Her name is Ren (Reveric Metherlence) who is a Eden Raid. "

Do watch this anime if you manage to find it, it's really nice, hehe, I cried at various interval.

LKY STEP Award

2006-07-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!! Yeah!!! I got the Lee Kuan Yew Scholarship to Encourage Upgrading.. Was so shocked when I open the letter box and saw a SMU letter. When I open the letter, was totally surprised, hehe..

This award is indeed prestigious, to be presented together with other awards like LKY Mathematics and Sci award, Prime minister book prizes etc. It comprises of one-off cash award of $3,500 and waival of school fees by the university if I don't have other scholarships on hand, coolz.

Thank you so much for selecting me..It's not about the money, so thrilled that I won an award/scholarship at national level and it's a recognition of my effort in school..Though already received recognition from TP, this is the highest and most honorable recognition I ever had.. hehe

Healing

2006-07-23T13:31:00.000+08:00

My knee seems to get slightly better. At least it's not so pain standing up even without panadol. One regret, I should have sought medical treatment on the day I fell. Anyway it's too late to regret, just have to wait till tmr.

Was curious about the LKY STEP award yesterday so when to check out the history. Realised that last year only 2 person got the award for the polytechnic going to university category. The interview list seems to have around 20 ppl.. wondering how many awards they are giving this year.. so chances are actually quite slim.. just hope loh

Updates

2006-07-21T22:21:00.000+08:00

Recently blogspot seems to have some problem... After typing half way it will prompt disconnection from blogspot, so I can't post..

Anyway, right now recuperating at home, yeah, sorta injured my knee yesterday, pain.. It got worse this morning but started to feel better in the evening, hope it will heal by tmr, =]

Went to LKY scholarship interview yesterday, panel of 3 deans from the 3 local unis and representative from MOE. Interview was quite ok, just that they drilled alot of personal questions.. Hope they accepted my response..hehe Right now, just pray hard that they will select me, lol...then maybe i'll have change to shake Minister Mentor's hand. =]

SMU student officially

2006-07-19T03:24:00.000+08:00

I went SMU to matriculate on Monday. Alot of stations to go to. hehe.

I also bought the new Fujitsu Tablet PC T4210S in school and collected it on the spot. So right now, I'm actually using the new laptop. Hee.Quite cool and easy to use. I was quite hesitant about buying insurance and $50 annually after the AIA girl promoted it. It ended up that I did not buy the insurance. I shall pray that my laptop will not be damaged in the scope not covered by the warranty. Come to think of it, warranty already covered alot of things, just not the LCD screen. So the insurance covers mainly the LCD. Anyway chances of damage is low, at least when it's only for school and personal use.

By the way, I was shortlisted for the Lee Kuan Yew STEP award. haha. Interview is tmr (thurs). Didn't really prepare much as don't even know what sort of questions they will ask. Scope is way too big for any preparation. So I guess I just need to be myself and speak from my heart during the interview hehe. Wish me luck ok.

Tablet PC

2006-07-07T08:17:00.000+08:00

OMG.. SMU's offer for Table PC is so attractive.. it's selling Fujitsu Lifebook T4210 at only 2500 ++ So tempted to buy.. The original price is $4288 (think it's being overstated).. the functions are solid and it's only abt 1.9 kg.. though still quite heavy but considered good for tablet pc at this price..

Dilenma here... I already have a laptop but it's ibook, a macintosh machine.. it's free la, so can't choose the platform... after just 1 semester of use for school purpose in poly.. top concern is compatibility.. even though already installed microsoft office for mac, still encounter problems like changing of formatt.. another concern is the excel sheet is a bit lack and shortchanged of certain features, don;t know exactly which, but can sense it.. It's a good notebook for personal use, but definately not for school, especially when like 90% of ppl are running on window..

Initially thought maybe can just live with these problems.. but after seeing the offer, got attracted.. or at least get a window notebook.. also very very cheap... 4 years of incompatibility and other associated convenience is crazy.. However, if i buy it there go my savings and need to req for some sponsorship from daddy....worse.. i really need some more clothes.. hope my dad is willing to sponsor me $1500, then i fork up another $1000 plus myself.. in this way, i'll have enuff money to buy a few decent clothes and own a fabulous tablet..

Will see first ba, if the tuition fee loan covers year 1 term 1 fee, then can consider.. if not, has to pay $3900+ upfront during matriculation.. I can't expect my dad to fork out $5000 plus cash like that right..Juz sent an email to enquire with finace, hope the reply will be optimistic.. keke..

Seems like I keep changing what i want to buy... but handphone is something i already have, getting a laptop that runs on window seems more practical (thought i own an ibook (mac) too).. anyway the ibook can pass to my brother who is in primary school..

2006-06-26T17:12:00.000+08:00

hehe, ordered pizza hut today. Had sudden craving for pizza hut..
ordered the Spicy BBQ Hawaiian pizza set, comes with 4 honey-grilled wings and 4 cinnamon bread stick.. yummy

Recently had some interest in camera, so took my bro's 2 mp SE cam hp to play....

The DKNY red apple I bought recently.. Ultra sweet and nice smell, lol

The books I bought recently

Angel & Demon and Da Vinci Code by Dan Brown, Harry Potter, Half Blood Prince by J.K Rowling. Planning to finish these books before school starts, hehe..

Thoughts after playing the camera.. Actually 2 megapixel camera is already very clear. N80 is 3mp, should I get it, lol.. but N80 does not have autofocus..

phones

2006-06-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

While browsing for potential 3G phones to buy, I came across Sony Ericsson K800i.. It's a 3.2 megapixel Cybershot 3G phone, Cool

the video clip for K800i, click here

Some picture

Moneyzzz

2006-06-18T05:36:00.000+08:00

It has always been a problem for me to keep money in the bank.. I'll somehow think of ways to spend it.. Not to mention that bills are already leeching into the savings..

So right now, I'm pondering of the things I should buy.. Cameras, computer, clothes etc.. But there's trade-off, I can't buy everything..

Just read through the SMU matriculation package... one of the page mentioned that SMU advocates the use of tablet PC.. This set me thinking if I should follow SMU's direction and save the money to buy a tablet PC.. However, I already own a laptop.. a nice and reasonably good MAC ibook.. just that experienced some incompatibility problem when I use it to do problems,, but these are just some minor hiccups that can be ressolved quite easily.. the only thing is that it's quite troublesome..

Another concern is what will happen to my ibook if i get another laptop? sitting on the shelf collecting dust? Or perhaps I can propose passing the ibook to my younger bro who is still in primary school.. Furthermore, if i decide to buy a new laptop, there goes my shopping lists.. I seriously need more presentable clothes, shoes etc..

Ermm.. this is just so hard to choose.. Perhaps I should just try to apply for the LKY STEP award, and pray hard that I'll be selected for it.. the application will close on 30 June and I'm still lacking my CCA record..

haiz....

Graduation Ceremony

2006-06-10T02:54:00.000+08:00

The graduation ceremony was such a great honour for me. Though there was some hiccups and embarrassment in between, overall it is still very facinating. People were congratulating me throughout the program.. The first time i'm truly proud of myself

My cert, gold medal and prizes

The 4 awards that I received, enclosed is quite a "fat" cheque, lol

Close-up of the gold medal, it's so nice and shiny, with my name inscribed on it.. hehe

ops, i was too carried away, pardon me if i'm showing off too much

Mermaid forest

2006-05-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

An ancient Japanese legend says that if one were to partake of the flesh of the mermaid, one would be granted eternal life and youth. Yuta ate the mermaid's flesh 500 years ago and became immortal. Since then he has had to deal with living a lonely never-ending life, watching his loved ones grow old and die. Wishing to have a normal life, to live and to die like others, he searches for a mermaid for centuries, thinking she may be able to tell him a way to become mortal again. When he arrives a village, he meets a girl named Mana, who also became immortal by eating a mermaid's flesh. Together, they start their journey in attempting to find a mermaid and regain their humanity.

Original Story by Rumiko Takahashi the world renowned master storyteller
(Inu Yasha, Ranma 1/2, Urusei Yatsura, Maison Ikkoku, Rumiko Takahashi
Anthology)

This is the anime i'm catching now. Although the title sounds a bit lame, but it's quite a nice show....

Still waiting for Trinity blood box 2 to come out, i'm waiting forever for it.. and just watch the mermaid forest for the time being, lol..

White is beautiful

2006-05-25T03:55:00.000+08:00

Seriously, white is beautiful.. hehe.. proud owner of white ipod nano and white apple ibook.. lol.. Hope their white beauty is everlasting, and free from contaminants..

trinity blood

2006-05-22T14:27:00.000+08:00

I'm following the anime "Trinity Blood" currently. It's a very cool and interesting anime series..hehe

Here's the synopsis:

"In far future when the civilization was ruined by Armageddon, human race has been fighting against vampires. An international organization, the Chancery (Vatican) in Rome delegates expeditionary executors to protect people from vampires. An executor, Abel Nightroad, looks powerless, but he is actually a vampire who sucks other vampires’ blood. During the battle at the risk of the existences of human race and vampires, Abel met a girl, Ester. Since this encounter, her fate has changed a lot."

bought ipod nana

2006-05-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

I finally bought a white ipod nano.. $438, quite expensive... but you know what? it's worth the money.. hehe I'm enjoying every moment using it, seeing it touching lol.. that i forgot that it was so expensive.. lol.. What's more, it works so perfectly well with ibook.. but i'm only left with like $700 plus to spend for the rest of the month,, as i got to help my brother pay his long overdue hp bill.. so can't go shopping or buy nice clothes for this month.. but anyway, my extension of contract for my job is approved, so leave shopping for another month..

OMG!!

2006-05-09T05:02:00.000+08:00

Oh my god!! I received a notification that I'll be presented 4 awards in the graduation ceremony.. So surprised that I thought I was dreaming..

I got the following awards:
1) Sandvik South East Asia Course Gold Medal - Top student of the course
2) Global Airfreight International Prize- Best student of subject Distribution Centre mgt
3) Singapore Logistics Association Prize- Best student of subject Transport mgt
4) TNT Express Worldwide Prize- Best student of subject Logistics and Operations Measurement
5) Diploma with Merit and Director's honour list

So excited and honoured, I never receive so many awards before.. Guess that day I'll have to stand very long waiting for the mcee to announce everything.. lol, just kidding.. I don;t mind waiting.. Wah, I'll have extra money in my pocket, but that's not important at all.. I really must thank all my lecturers for inspiring me and selecting me for these awards, without them this will not be possible.. I'm really happy and honoured and filled with undescribably great gratitude to TP...

Looks like I must go for the graduation ceremony.. Just that worried about climbing up and down, I mean, it's very embarrassing that I fall down halfway.. Hope they will let me come out from backstage and exit to the backstage.. I shall send an email to inform them and hope they will accept my ridiculous request..

IPOD Nana, impossibly small

2006-05-08T04:27:00.001+08:00

I wanted to buy a 4Gb Ipod nano to use as both data storage and mp3 player. Furthermore, it can be synched perfectly using my apple ibook.. However it doesn't come cheap.. $438!!! I'm thinking if I should buy N80 which is a mp3 player, 3 mp cam, internet browser, 3G video call phone..etc etc for $1038.. I mean if i buy N80 I'll possess all the IT/Entertainment features I'll ever need in the near future..

Argh.. Why do I keep thinking of spending the money? Looks that I'm not good at saving money at all.. I want to buy more clothes to wear to smu (heard all dress very well), new workdesk and shelf so that I can do my work in a comfy and big space..

I hope I bear with all the urges until the great Singapore sales.. maybe N80 or Ipod's price will drop.. hehe..

Nokia N80

2006-05-08T04:27:00.000+08:00

Nokia N80 is so cool... Filled with so many excellent functions and features.. 3 megapixel cam, mp3 player, 3G, WLAN/WiFi etc...

How I wish I could own this phone.. The retail price is $1038, and I just signed for Mot V3 not long ago, meaning i could buy at promo price anyway,.. My full-month pay is coming soon, so worried that I can't control myself and buy N80.. exp sia..

SMU, That's my choice

2006-04-28T13:29:00.000+08:00

After days of hard thinking and consideration.. I've decided to go to SMU. Sent a withdrawal request for the law interview and they accepted it..Guess NUS will not be offering a place to me, since my reason for withdrawal is I've decided to go to another instituition and the law faculty has forwarded this email to the admission office.. Good for me, as in one less choice to waver my decision.

People always say, look at the software when choosing the uni. Hardware is equally important to me. To me, SMU possesses an excellent hardware (nice environment, convenience to move around for me etc), and also a good software. The only thing is I will have to adapt and learn how to speak openly and comfortably infront of many people and move away from the traditional learning method..Well I'm open to challenge.

And to begin with, SMU is the dream school that I've been pursuing. In fact i set a goal to go to SMU, that's why i did so well in poly. Furthermore, no matter how many things I wavered, my choice still went back to SMU.. So guess probably, inside me, I just wanna go SMU.. So I should just follow my feeling..

So I've made my choice, hope i won't change my mind away..

Got into SMU

2006-04-23T12:23:00.000+08:00

Finally received the letter from SMU yesterday. Somehow I just felt so happy to get accepted into SMU, although it's teaching pedagagy is a little bit not suitable for me.... After I saw that letter, I had a sudden urge to default on the NUS law interivew. Upon some consideration, I think that law is really not my cup of tea.. but I don't know how to reject them.. I mean it's not very nice not to go for the interview.. and it's very funny that I inform them I'm not going for the interview as I chose the wrong course...

Dilenmas, dilenmas, dilenmas....

NTU versus SMU

2006-04-05T13:46:00.000+08:00

Went for the SMU admission interview yesterday.. long interview... The interview lasted about 1.5 hr followed by a 45 min essay writing..

Interview topic: "Should student bear the costs of university education" I totally blanked out when it's my turn to speak..which is crap.. I contributed significant number of main points to my grp.. yes it's split into 2 grps and its a debate.. I'm the last one to speak and already got countered very jialat by the opposition le. So i'm basically left with "Education is for yourself, if one bear the costs will tend to cherish the education more" Unfortunately it's quite a weak point and i failed to elaborate intelligently on it.. hmmmm.. I realised that i'm not comfortable to learn in the so called "seminar-style" setting.. argh..It's not that i'm not smart.. just no that articulated,.. I'm more of the "brain" than the "mouth".. Guess i just flopped the verbal interview.. haiz..

Essay topic
1) "Tell a friend about the happiest day of your life" So childish so i didn't write..about it..

2) "In less than 500 words, write about contentment" Yes I wrote about this..just crapping through.. realised that my 3 main points are abt the same..just elaborated in different perspectives, lol.. anyway, the essay is definitely much better than the interview..

Why must SMU make their interview so tedious.. and the faculty don't seem that friendly.. yes..somehow sense some degree of coldness from them.. Arrogance? maybe..

So should I take the risk and go into smu where i'm not that comfortable with the learning style.. Or should I just go to NTU Accountancy, which i'm already accepted into... Kinda worried that environment might be a little though for me. So decided to check it out during the hi-tea session (yes ntu is so hospitable, actually invited me to the tea session =])

Guess if NTU is fine for me, i'll just accept ntu ba.. =]

Universities and work

2006-04-01T20:33:00.000+08:00

Yeah, I got accepted to NTU accountancy.. I've been hearing that it's so hard to get into ntu accountancy as it's one of the best in Asia, especially when I'm took diploma in logistics and operations mgt in poly.. it's like totally not link with accountancy.. lol.. So happy that they accepted me anyway.. hehe =].. But then still need to assess if ntu environment is easy to move around for me...

Was informed to go for SMU BBM interview on coming tuesday.. they didn't mention anything about essay writing.. so strange.. maybe there's no need to write essay lol.. I heard different things from different person.. so guess i'll find out on tuesday..

Tmr going back to work again.. lol.. got to hear from those customers... I realised that tmr there might be no TL.. shit.. I didn't sign my pay slip for this week.. what was i thinking.. could have signed it on friday and i dun need to worry so much.. crazy me,,, hope there'll be a TL or someone who can sign for me tmr... if not this week's pay will only be given to me in may. cryz.. no money le... according to the agency if never submit pay slip promptly they might even delay my pay...argh.. No.. i need money.......

2006-03-23T04:36:00.000+08:00

Haha, enjoying my first offday since i started work..Work so far has been good.. my team mates are all very nice ppl.. But too serious.. lol.. my shift mate is so keen to hit the inbound calls target..(fyi the target is avg of 12 calls per hour, so got to hit like 100 calls per day for the 8.5 work hours). He's so afraid that he'll be highlighted by our TL for low productivity.. But poor me, have been hitting like only 80 plus calls per day.. looks like I got to buck up.. lol.. take calls continously.. but think by next week shld be able la.. just got to end call as quickly as possible..also need to become more familiar of the stuffs.. realized that i've advise some wrong stuff.. but not detrimental at all.. guess got to burn one off day to study the products on the webbie thoroughly..

Realized something.. there's a few wheel-chaired/physically challenged ppl like me working there..and all the colleagues are very caring ppl.. Perhaps I shld just worked there permanently.. hehe.. I'm really scare tt ppl will not employ me.. as I've feeling my "wheel-chair" days drawing nearer day after day.. I find it quite hard to walk recently.. just walking a short distance will cause me to pant.. ya.. it's that serious.. But I still want to continue moving around w/o any walking aids as long as i can.. God.. pls give me another 5 years of moving w/o any aids.. just 5 years is what i ask for.. I hope i'll stop weakening.. it seems quite obvious tt i'm weakening weeks after weeks.. Come to think of it.. I should count myself fortunate enuff to be still walking around at the age of 22.. hope i can walk till age of 30.. and i'll sit on wheel-chair willingly... well sad things are not worth talking for so long..

Yawnz.. wan an... nitenite

Employed

2006-03-22T04:03:00.000+08:00

Haha, I've finally been employed, with effect from 15 march 2006. hehe. I'm with Starhub Customer service now.. Somehow, I returned to a similar field as my first job.. CSO for call centre.. hehe.. Good pay, good environment nice colleagues, good accessibility.. hehe what more can i ask for.. lucky me..

So far work has been progressing smoothly.. though still not able to hit the required target of aboout 100 call pick-ups per day.. still trying.. u know when u're new, it takes longer to close 1 call.. especially when ppl ask abt alot of things..I think i'm crazy, dun know why i'm so enthu abt the job..

Worrying abt SMU admissions.. Wonder if i can get in.. still bothered by SMU comments that they may not take in even if the results is very good.. Still need to pass the essay writing and interview..So i need to train up for essay writing and become more outspoken..

I'm BORED

2006-03-06T03:40:00.000+08:00

So what have I been doing after the unofficial graduation? I'm living an aimless life..lol..

Have been trying to look for jobs online.. tried searching over the newspaper, but realised that most of the jobs posted on newspaper are also available online..good.. So I don't have to spend the money to buy straits times.. Posted several resumes( i think close to 10) for customer service and admin jobs.. registered with Recruit Express, which they asked me to go down all the way to raffles place just to filled up the same things I have in my resume and talk with me for like 2 mins.. Till no there's no response.. so hope this week someone will call me for interview with the companies (not the agencies).. Seriously I'm hoping that Singtel mobile will hire me on the account that I worked there before and received compliment letters from customers..even though I can only commit 1 month less than they required.. Singtel is like so far my place..2-ways cab fare will only costs like $6 bucks (fyi, i'm really dependent on cabs.. since commuting via bus seems more challenging for me)..

Exams results will be out this coming friday.. I shall keep my finger crossed because I only started revision like 1 day before the exams..most slack.. Hope I applied my knowledge well..and the major project, my most optimistic prediction is a B+ for me.. hope my 2 papers won't let me down , at least A for the 2 subjects.. I'll seriously faint if I see all Bs in the exam results.. If I can get all As, it would be best.. Hope i'll not think so much..

Waiting for NUS and NTU application results.. have yet to apply for SMU, but quite tempted after passing by the city campus.. it's ultra convenient, accessible and "environment friendly" to me.. it looks like even if i'm wheel-chaired, I can still travel around easily around SMU, with minised cab fare..I can take cab to Hg MRT and commute directly to SMU.. it would only costs like $8 for 2-ways cab fees.. hmm got to do some calculations.. NUS/NTU (Hons) $6100 per year fee + Hostel for 3 yrs versus SMU direct Hons $7500 per year + transportation fee for 3 (accelerated)-4 years.. and what if I'm not given hostel for nus/ntu.. transportation fee will be so high..

2006-03-01T02:22:00.000+08:00

You are the the Hierophant card. The Hierophant,

called The Pope in some decks, is the

preserver of cultural traditions. After

entering The Emperor's society, The

Hierophant teaches us its wisdom. The

Hierophant learns and teaches our cultural

traditions. The discoveries our ancestors

have made influence the present. Without

forces such as The Hierophant who are able to

interpret and communicate traditional lore,

each generation would have to begin to learn

anew. As a force that is concentrated on our

past and our culture, The Hierophant can

sometimes be stubborn and set in his ways.

This is a negative trait he shares with his

zodiac sign, Taurus. But like Taurus he is

productive. His traditional lore can provide

a source of inspiration for the creatively

inclined, and his knowledge provides an

excellent foundation for those who come into

their own in the business world. Image from:

Morgan E. Cauthers-Knox.

http://elfwood.lysator.liu.se/loth/m/o/morganc/morganc.html

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Unofficial graduation

2006-02-26T22:15:00.000+08:00

haha.. I've graduated unofficially from TP.. Ended my TP life with an LPCS exam paper on friday.. Quite worried about the exams actually coz I didn't really revise thoroughly.. it's like revised the day before.. maybe about like 6-8 hrs of effective revision,, ermmm,,, wonder what happened to me... fortunately was able to do the papers.. Think should be able to get A.. hope my feeling is same as reality.. lol..

Anyway, the exams are done.. just need to wait for like 2 weeks for the final revelation..hope i can still maintain my GPA.. lol.. Applied for NUS BBA and NTU Accountancy and BBA.. heard the application results will be out somewhere in late march.. hope i can get admited to NUS.. lol..

Slacking all the way

2006-02-15T02:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, it is simply pleasure to slack and spend all day watching TV, play game etc..

But then, I'm starting to feel a little guilty.. I'm having exams next thursday and friday. only 2 papers.. but 2 difficult papers.. and i've been slacking from friday till now.. slacked for 5 days already.. Why? Why do i not feel the urge to study??.. Probably, subconsciously, my mind and body is trying to compensate the fatigue I accumulated while rushing the final year project for a few weeks.. to compensate for the many sleepless nights.. Well well well.. Hope I will get started with my revision latest by this thurs.. no matter what, need one week to revise..

Applying for university these few days.. clear NUS application a few days ago.. going to apply for NTU soon.. Kinda stuck at one section where they want me to write a short personal essay.. Why am I stuck? I can come out with pages of academic essay answers spontaneously.. strange.. when it comes to writing personal stuff, I just don't know how to write? what to write about? Perhaps, I'm paying too little attention to myself, while persuing my goals.. Everyday just simply thinking about the goals i want, how to achieve them, am I near these goals. etc...Thinking about all these so much that sometimes, I can "lose" myself.. Perhaps I should spend more time with myself, to think about and reflect on my personal happenings..

2006-02-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

After being sad over the screwed-up presentation, I concluded that I should just put it behind and move on.. afterall, let bygone be bygone.. The more constructive things to do is to improve on the presentation with the company.. To remedy all the damage done.. Probably it can give a statement that the preparation time for the sch presentation wasn't enough.. But for the company presentation, there's no excuses.. have until this fri to get ready for the presentation.. although it might be silly to underperform in presentation that's worth 25% and work so hard for a 10% presentation.. well...doing better in the next one will probably save my pride.. So let's hope it's a great success..

Some good news.. haahaa. Just received the grade for distribution centre management project and online test.. Both got A hehe.. At least there's something to lighten my mood.. and the project is my hard work.. I literally did everything.. and it is true, So re-assure that i'm still A standard.. but why the most important fyp became like that.. ops.. i shouldn't whine about it anymore.. at least i learnt some precious lessons..

Time really flies... in just a wink, it's already the last week of the semester.. keke and i've about 2 weeks to revise for 2 papers.. wow..great.. so maybe 1 chapter per day will do.. provided i;m disciplined enough to follow such regime..

2006-02-03T20:12:00.001+08:00

Just finished & presented the final year project.. Normally should be feeling happy that such a big load is off. But i ended up feeling sad.. After the question & answers, realized that my project is quite shallow.. so what is alot of different areas are compared. Perhaps focus of proj is wrong.. or other things? This is the most important project & i'm not performing up to my standard.. perhaps i'm better at analysis, rather than planning events.. But if i can start all over again. how will i do it? Think... think ...think...

1) I should be more active in planning the project scope & definition, rather than just be an obedient kid, listening to what the company supervisor wants and always trying to please him.. but the scope ended so big that turned up can't really please the company as there's time contraint in going into details..

2) Should the supervisor highlight that they need a new automated conveyor system, I would have request to change the scope to focus on just the conveyor system.. this would be a really interesting & marks-scoring part.. You, can do alot of things for this..can do simulation, create models. etc..

3) should have just concentrate on relocation, even sourcing for suppliers & costs (the most time consuming part) does not add much value.. haiz, if just focus on the relocation, can do forward/backward passing, promodel simulation for the shift..

Anyway what is done is done, no turning back...but hope can get at least B la.. though i'm quite pessimistic about the B even... but guess should be anything above D ba..maybe le, i saw other group's work like so detailed.. haiz.. what's the point of thinking about it... I learnt my lesson.. never be lazy & try to take a short cut out.it will come back to you somehow.. guess i get a C, still can get into uni ba.. with all my As & Zs to counter off..Argh.. so scare.. i keep my finger-crossed.. since i did the proj so badly.. perhaps wining an academic medal will be very hard le ba..haizzz

2006-02-03T20:12:00.000+08:00

Mid-Semester Test

2006-01-19T21:41:00.000+08:00

Mid-semester test is over.. just 2 papers.. Realize something, no memorization is required for the test. It's all understanding..Good.. But the questions are quite tough, all application questions.. wonder how I'll score..

However, I'm not really that worried about the tests la.. More worried about the projects and meeting the deadlines..

23Jan 06 Distribution Centre Mgt Project submission
2 Feb 06 Major Project Final Report Submission
3 Feb 06 Major Project Presentation
7 Feb 06 Major Project Presentation with company...........

Wow, so much.. the major project alone enough to kill. considering the large scope and difficulty.. DCM is just a relatively small project, so perhaps it will serve as a good warm up, to prepare the final report for Major Project..

And seeing the deadlines above, it means not CNY celebration for me... Argh!!

Ermmz?

2006-01-18T02:07:00.001+08:00

Oh man! Something is really wrong with me.. I just can't concentrate this semester.. slacking all the way.. (still manage to do things i need to do la, but not efficient enough).

The major project is giving headache.. Submission is 2 weeks later.. but it suddenly stop progressing,.. I not that confident about the quality of the project, or is my expectation too high? But I don't enjoy the project I'm doing now.. usually I love doing project,.. strange? Guess I need to open up my head to see what's wrong with my brain.. always sleepy and lethargic.. argh...

Hope I can start to speed like Ferrari after my DCM test tmr.. going to "piang" the project from thurs to sun.. Hope it will serve as a good warm-up for drafting final report for major project =]

Touched by an Angel

2006-01-18T02:07:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, encountered a very kind boy, so compelled to blog about it but could find the time, I'll do so today. keke.

Was going to cross the traffic light yesterday, a school boy was playing with his friends and accidentally bumped on to me.. A very light push on me will make me fall about 90% of the time.. Sad.. there I was kneeling on the ground and couldn't stand up as usual.. They were so shocked.. then a group of Bowen sec school boys crowded aroun me.. A kind boy suggested carrying me across the road to HG PT (the place I intende to go) and left me on the stairs to rest.. I didn't want to trouble them so told them I would be alright after sitting for a while.. So they left..

As expected, I could not stand up after trying for like 15-20 min, or even 30 min.. The people who passed by me practically ignored me.. perhaps, it's really odd for someone not able to stand up on his own.. so it's not their fault. I was so scared that I would have to sit there forever..

Fortunately, the school boy who helped me, came down again, from his home to check if I was alright..(imagine what if i left le, then wasted trip liao) So kind right... He was like angel to me then.. He tried to help me to stand up but not enuff strength..He got another guy to help me.. Then he acompanied me home to ensure i won't fall again. He sent me home until my doorstep sia.. He only left when I entered my house..so Kind, so nice.. I was so touched sia.. Too bad I'm a guy, If i'm a ger I'll yi shen xiang xu le..Just kidding.. I should have gotten his name, then can make fren with him and write a compliment letter to his school.. Why didn't I think of that... hee.. Hope I'll see him again.. then treat him a meal.. (He stays around me)

Happy New Year

2006-01-01T10:30:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2006!!! A new year has come. It seems so fast..

New year celebration was fun. It's always fun with my buddies around..haha It was a big feasting day.. keke.. Buffet at Sakura Safra Tamp in the afternoon. Large variety, food not bad.. We ate so much, so full.. Then proceeded to KTV at China Town.. Nice, I sang 4 new songs I just heard.. hehe Kenji, didn't know that his songs are so nice.. Then went to Brew Werk at Boat Quay.. We ordered some finger food and a 3.5litre brewerk beer (A tower). The beer is nice and cute, it came in a medium dispenser.. and the food, huge.. the each serving is like so big..and 5 plates of food for 4 person.. it's like another buffet, keke.

The day was one word.. FUN!!!

So what's my resolution for 2006...?

My immediate wish is great success and fast progress for the major project from today till submission of report in Feb.. So how its progressing so slowly for the past 1 month.. Did something, but it could be much better and faster.. So for Jan, my schedule will be packed and hectic... Hope it's like that.. Hope the project management technique will "glamorise" the project and make it significant as a logistics/operations project..hehe, Me really looking forward to applying these techniques..hope 2 weeks is enough for a comprehension application of project management..

As for the longer term one, have not really finalise that.. I know I want to go to either NUS or SMU.. thus i guess, it will be more towards academic..if going to NUS, got to start mugging after I graduate, in order to pass all the exemption exams.. so I can graduate in just 2 years time.. hehe

2005-12-23T01:38:00.000+08:00

This semester feels so weird... The worse is the major project, which I'm not very sure of how to conduct and coordinate it.. being the project leader is so stress. But i expected this... Somehow I can't seem to stay focused.. Did the internship make me more stupid and lazy? Hope not... I'm disappointed with myself, at the same time people are having high expectations for me... How can I disregard their trust in me...

So dear Daniel, please wake up and start working like a roller coaster because time is really running out..

I have a resolute conclusion which shall not be changed... I want to go to university.. I want to go to University.. I am not going to let my physical condition to affect my resolution... Coz I know if I don't go, I'll regret.. I already regretted alot of things, I'm not going to have regrets anymore... and perhaps, I should consider going to academic field.. that means alot of study to come.. Bachelor, Master.....................................Dare to dream......

haha... Wish me good luck for the very important major project...From now on, I'll revert back to my very kiasu and aggressive attitude... teamplayer... confident.. and effective... no more slacking.. no more distraction.... no more doubts....

Korean Drama

2005-12-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

Korean dramas are just so nice.. I'm currently watching another korean drama "Sandoo, Let's go to school", it's another shorter drama other than "Fullhouse".. Yeah normally korean dramas are very long.. Anyway, although it is short, it's really nice.. But i must admit tt begining of the drama is a bit draggy, but as it progress it becomes very nice... I just hope that i have to time to complete the other 10 episodes all at once, but apparently i've alot of things waiting for me to do...

Ok "Sandoo, let's go to school" is a romance drama about a pair of puppy lovers Sandoo and En Heng. En Heng's mum was in debt and the debtors came to their house to grab all the items, and En Heng favorite gramophone was grab away too.. Sandoo witnessing all these (En Heng didn't know) couldn't bear to see En Heng being so hurt, confronted the debtors to get back the gramophone.. Sandoo accidentally pushed one of the debtor into the river and was arrested by the police.. He was jailed..

When he was arrested, En Heng who didn;t know abt it went to Sandoo's house and no one was there.. neither can he be contacted... During the nite of sandoo's arrest, Enheng's mum forced her to move to other towns with her as her mum feared the debtors will come again..

After they left, En Heng had been writing to Sandoo's but there was no reply.. Apparently Sandoo was in jail and his foster parents forsaken him and migrated to US and his high school sacked him.. En Heng thought he had forgotten her....

However, both of them are truly in love even after ten years later, they met again in Seoul.. En Heng is now a maths teacher in a high school, Sandoo (27 yo) wanting to get En Heng back to him, joined the High School as a mature students. Alot of problems exist.. En Heng was going to get married with a doctor and Sandoo was a "Niu Lang" (earns his living by being "boyfriend" of old and rich women) and had a daughter, but he was not married. I think he had it with another ger Si Lo, when he was very drunk, probably mistaking her as En Heng, haha.. Si Lo also likes Sandoo very much.. and another complication, the ger Si Lo turns out to be En Heng's long lost daughter..

So sad rite.. from what I've watched, En Heng and Sandoo has now already confessed their love for each other.after long period of denial.... Sandoo is turning over a new leaf, doing decent jobs and working very hard.. and En Heng is trying to get the doctor to leave her..the doctor knows Sandoo's secrets, hope the doc won't use them to get En Heng back... I guess En Heng will be very shocked when she knows Sandoo's secrets...

Puppy love is indeed unforgetable.. however it may be, puppy love is still the sweetest and miraculous things.. That show invoked alot of thoughts in me...........

End of internship/Start of school

2005-12-04T00:15:00.000+08:00

My 12 weeks internship has finally ended, but I guess I'm gonna miss TNT Asia. It's a really nice place to work in I wonder if I have a chance to work at TNT again..

My supervisor and boss were very good to me today.. treated me to Fish and Co. and praised me the whole day.. keep saying that everyone thinks that I have been doing great job during my internship.. My boss even wanted to write me a recommendation letter, and ask the CEO to endorse.. Hope they'll really do it.. so kind of them=].

Hope they will give me great appraisal for my internship.. full marks? keke .. no la.. but i guess i would expect at least A and above ba.. prayz.....

School is starting soon... I can already feel the stress of the coming major project, which has actually already started, just that the project kick-off is not as smooth as i wanted it to be.. Some miscommunication and confusions here and there. Hopefully all the issues will be ressolved on the first day we report to the company officially...

This week end will be sip report typing day....hehe busy busy busy.. still have to complete FILA by mon/tues.. argh... busy busy.. haha

By the way, I found a "fullhouse" blogskin that comes with the song... can't resist it.. Fullhouse is so nice.. nice nice...I love it... and the actress is so pretty...=]

2005-11-22T10:35:00.000+08:00

This week, I'm plagued with alot of unlucky incidents. And It's only tuesday today..

Let me start from yesterday...

I waited 2 HOURS for a CAB...Unbelievable.. I can't believe it myself, but its true.. wonder if ppl believe me, but it 100% true....I woke up at 7.30am, considered late la, so I panicked and rush to the toilet to wash my face and quickly dress up. Managed to get reeady by 7.50 and realized that it was raining... And I thought to myself that surely will not have cab... So i tried calling for a cab.. There were no cabs, I was on the phone for 10-15 min waiting for it to assign a cab for me. I called till the phone hung up by itself.. strange.. So I called again. This time, can't even call in.. So i quickly rush down and there's not a single cab. and ppl are all around me, waiting for cab too...I saw them desperate like me and on the phone.. I tried calling 4 cab companies, still useless.. 65521111,65522222,65523333,64857777..I call these nbr repeatedly.. my hp from full battery to low batt... all either no cab or cannot get through..Finally get a cab from the street after abt 2 hrs.. I was already quite drenched. hai..

But thankfully, the company was having a firedrill.. blesing in disguise.. the firedrill need to walk the stairs from 20th floor to 1st floor. if i'm was there earlier, i would have died from cramps. haha Just nice, i reached parkway when the fire drill just ended.. so that period i was waiting for cab, there's no work...guess it's alright ba..

Today, morning.....

I woke up on time and got prepared by 7.40 and got a cab very quickly, 7.45 i was already in the cab.. reached my workplace at 8.20.. very happy,, i was early.. BUT.. yes BUT... UNFORTUNATELY, just after i alighted from the cab, right after the cab drove off.. I suddenly fell over the curb, onto the plants and muds..I was not sure if was fainted at that instance or i just lost my balance..I must admit that i was slightly "drowsy" when i realized that i was on the mud.. Ofcouse ppl came to help me.. a few TNT staffs (my collegues) also saw me..one of them accompanied me throughout I told them i just need to stand up, but they didn't manage to pull me up.. so they called the security.. and they made a big fuss out of it... They quickly went to get a wheelchair which i waited for so long.. I realise that the person who saw me fell and helped me is from Parkway management, and she's the third biggest in parkway..a property manager i think................

2005-11-01T16:42:00.000+08:00

You seem like you won't even get drunk as much. You
drink moderately and most likely on special
occasions. If you feel yourself getting over
the limit, you would try to control yourself.
And if you were a bit tipsy, most likely you
would get some rest. You're a person who can
control your actions and are very responsible.
You are careful in what you do and like to
avoid trouble. That's good for you. More people
need to think like you do =)

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2005-11-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

Somehow I'm getting more and more pessimistic recently.. I feel sad, I feel that I'm living in fear... How I hope the time would just stop..that my body will stop changing...as each day passess, I'm getting weaker.. the deterioatioon is so obvious that I can feel it week after week... I'm so scare that I'll be wheel-chaired anytime... I don't know when I won't be able to walk again. this feeling, this thought is driving me crazy,, I dun wanna even think about it, but it can't be help...such fear, such pessimism will just drift into my head unknowingly.. whenever I walk around, i'll sub-consciously think about it... is it a bad omen? that sign that I'm nearing "wheel-chair"hood? I dare not think about it... I'm so scare...

Somehow, this fear waver my stand of going to university.. I was very sure that i wanna go uni.. but right now, I actually giving a second thought, i can't believe it... This is what i am scare of... 4 years is too long.. I"m already feeling that i might get wheel-chaired soon.. what if even i graduated from uni, no one wants to hire me? wouldn't i be wasting my dad's money, and burden him for the rest of his life? Should i just go secure a job after poly, impress the boss, gain enuff experience and secure the job for good?.....

Another way to look at it... since i know i'll be wheel-chaired, shouldn't i make-up my short-coming with good qualification, at least i ;ve the brain to offer to employer? since i will not be mobile like normal ppl, i should further my education as far as possible, and get a deskbound high salaried job... most manager are on their desk most of the time right.. dilenma? I just can;t decide on the best option... but i know deep inside me, i wanna go uni, so going uni will still be my stand...

I apologize for the extreme pessimism, I just have to let out, if not i'll go crazy,....

SIP

2005-10-16T14:18:00.000+08:00

Well after serving Student Internship Programme (SIP) for sometime, I think I should blog something about it. haha.

Guess what, I'm doing something not related to my course of study even though my lecturer insisted that it is still related. I'm a logistics student, attached to the sales and marketing department doing competitive and market intelligence research. Nevertheless, the good news is I'm coping quite well there. From my supervisor's feedback, she seems quite please with my work, hopefully she's not just trying to be nice.

Actually I've completed one intranet assignment for the asia region already. Right now moving on to the countries' intranet, there's seems to be some problem getting access, trying to ressolve it now.. hehe

well, that's all ba, nowadays got some sort of "regulation" on blog, dun scare to say too much abt company, in case disclose some secret stuff without knowing, then diez....

2005-09-26T20:53:00.000+08:00

Shit, I very scare, I think I getting nearer to joining the wheel-chair community as each hour pass....My muscles is leaving me in an accelerating rate.... I'm losing my balance.. even walking poses problems for me now.. sad... hai, dun wanna talk about it anymore... BUT I can't stop myself from thinking of it...... I can't do anything about.... Deep inside me I'm desperate... but i've to put on the mask showing ppl I'm alright... Worse, everyone is putting the "handicap" spectables when looking at me... how?!!!? How?!!!!! HOW?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just ignore me, just gonna let my frustration out here..!!!!!!

2005-09-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

Well, follow-up on the previous blog entry:

I start to think that perhaps I'm focusing too much on getting the results, that I've neglected the process.. Well, the thing is that, learning is not just about scoring glorious results.. it's about whether you know put the knowledge and skills acquire into good use. The values of learning is knowing that it has benefit you somehow, someway, that you have crystalized the gis of what is learnt... There's really no point to scorin 100 marks for all papers, when at the end of the day, you forget everything after the semester is over.. Not sure if i'm right?.. I used to prefer to score 100 marks and then forget everything... but definately not now.. haha

Sometimes, I should not be so tight over getting the results... I ought to sit back and look at a bigger picture

Fortunately, I'm not a serious victim of "cram-throw-out-forget" in the learning process. It is re-afirm in my SIP.. I believe that I'm still able to understand transports and marketing.. hehe. In fact, I'm able to apply it to an acceptable extent..

SIP seems stressful, with alot of things.... sometimes it seems insignificant... sometimes it seems overwhelming.. this is the results of work instructions that's too brief and broad.. the expectations are not well-communicated across.. I also fault at not managing their expectation of me sufficiently well.. Sometimes it's not that I dun wanna attempt to manage it.. it's I'm an intern there.. so I should follow instructions.. but it seems to me that instead, they have given me the responsible to plan the project and schedule my work,,, this is the impression i got.. However, sometimes i wonder what is the project in-charge for? Since the person has ownership over the proj and is a brain-child of it.. should't the person be responsible for all the nitty-gritty planning, tasking and work schedule.. hmmmm... strange.. Well i just want to be a nice boi, doing his job well and competently.. anyway, since i;m tasked already..i should be responsible... however, i'm seems to be getting new responsibility everyday.. it's like snow-ball, things keeps on adding on... or it's because i didn't plan well and didn't scope my responsibilites subtantially.. well, that's something i've to analyze..

haha, perhaps i'm stressed over nothing... but the project is really coolz.. just that i'm not provided with enuff resources..

yawnz.. getting tired before 12 nowadays.. good nitez

2005-09-23T20:59:00.000+08:00

haha, got back my results le... it reached my mobile without me knowing... I was still eating lunch with my boss, while waiting nervously for results, when i've already received it.. haha...

It was when the boss wanted to go eat ice-cream, and when placing orders, i took out my hp to check time... haha Oh my god, results is in my phone le... suddenly nervousness increased many times.. even my colleagues and the boss are shaking beside me.. with me... haha.. coz i acted too nervous..

then open the msg, wah..... 2 As and 3 Zs... well, the first reaction is extremely happy, so happy that i unknowingly announce my results... my colleagues were cheering with me... haha.. nice ppl...

Then my boss said, she found a good reason to eat ice-cream now.. she treated us the ice-cream.. 1 scope $3 something sia..

Then think think abt the results, suddenly not happy le... y not all Zs haiz.. the 2 As are QM and MM.. haiyo.. QM expected Z one.. but anyway..I studied really last min... haha.. so 3Zs 2As already very heng liaoz. hehe

SIP

2005-09-19T20:45:00.000+08:00

haha, got news about my internship company this morning..hehe

I'm attached to TNT Worldwide Express, at parkway parade.. Big company sia, and it's the Asia Headquater.. hehe.. By the way, I'm attached to her marketing department.. hehe, but it's still logistics related la=]...

I read the job scope, it's research on transport, sea freight.. etc.. and also competitors and consumers analysis..preparing report.. data entry. etc etc.. coolz sia, both marketing and logistics stuff together=].. In fact, i like marketing.. the subject la=]

So anxious, looking forward to it =]

2005-09-19T05:20:00.000+08:00

haha, guess what?!! I had insomnia again.. but not that serious one..

at 10.30pm, I was already preparing myself to sleep, I even burnt the "sleepwell" aromatherapy blend... Think I fell asleep at 11 something.. Sadly, I suddenly woke up at 3 am, for no apparent reason.. then I can't go back to sleep again, no matter how hard i try... try until 5, then give up, dun sleep le.. However, at least i slept for 3-4 hours la,, so not that bad... and at least I won't oversleep and be late for the SIP launch day.. keke..

Nothing to blog about now.. after the sip launch, guess will have alot of things to say ba...

So anxious to find out which company i got attached to.. keke

2005-09-16T18:08:00.000+08:00

In the Land of Clow, a teenaged Syaoran returns from archaeology did where he is working. He is greeted by his old childhood friend, Princess Sakura. Sakura wants to confess her feelings for Syaoran, but gets interupted before doing so. Later, she meets Syaoran at the ruins where her latent powers become active and wings (tsubasa) appear as a mysterious person attempts to kidnap her. Syaoran prevents Sakura from being taken, but now Sakura is unconscious and her memories appear to be gone. She will die unless she can get help from the time-space witch Yuuko. The priest-mage Yukito sends Syaoran across space and time to another universe where Yuuko resides on Earth in Japan. There, they not only meet Yuuko, but also Kurogane, a powerful ninja who was sent there by Princess Tomoyo from her universe to learn the true meaning of strength. And finally they meet Fai, a powerful mage and creator of Chii in his world. He's on the run from a sleeping ruler named Ashura.

Yuuko agrees to grant all of their wishes for a major price. For Kurogane, he must give up his sword in order to travel through dimensions in the hopes of returning home. For Fai, he must give up the tatoos that his magic comes from so he can stay on the run. For Syaoran, he must give up his current relationship with Sakura to travel to the dimensions to find the feathers of her wings which contain her memories. And Sakura, though unconscious, must give up her memories of Syaoran.

Together, the four set off with the critter Mokona, who can locate Sakura's feathers, who can open doors between universes, and who can communicate with Yuuko when needed.

2005-09-15T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hee, Daddy gave me $150 yesterday to buy officewear.. hehe.. So it's good to open my mouth to ask afterall... initially a bit scare that my dad will scold me.. haha.. but didn't.. I asked for $100, and told him it's for my internship.. an without hesitation, he gave me $150.. hehe $50 more...

So I went to compass point to buy some office wear.. so sianz,, didn't want to explore around, so went straight to G2000.. So good, buy one and 50% off for the second shirt/pants.. the deal is even better than when it's during the great singapore sales.. strange sia.. think it's good for me coz i'm intending to buy 2 or 3 business pants... I bought 2 grey long pants.. each of different design and different shades of grey.. haha.. wanted to buy black.. then no more, and after I tried, realize that grey is nice.. hee.. nicer than black.. only costed me $69 for 2...for the shirt, will leave until i start work then buy.. not sure if can wear short sleeve shirt or not...so just wear the 2 long sleeves i have first...

Then walked around compass point...suddenly dun feel like buying anything.. dun wanna spend so much money... haha,, that's strange for me... anyway, I also bought a small bottle of aromatherapy oil.."Sleepwell" blend... keke.. trying to regulate my sleeping habit back to normall.. but dun seem to be able to sleep before 3 am.. hopefully this will work...

Then went to polar cake shop to buy an eclair and durian cream puff for dinner.. the sales assistant quite rude sia.. talking about service.. compass point MOS burger cashier also not good in their service.. I ordered peach tea, thought that it came with the milk... mix up la.. then i asked for a milk.. she said "cannot, you asked for peach tea, not milk tea" (the ice milk tea is the same, also come in peach or normal tea mah, just that it's with milk pack".. obviously I ordered wrongly rite... before i even wanted to ask for a change.. just give me the milk and i pay more...she shut me down liao.. turn off.. the peach tea is so sour and acidic sia... well the rude ones happened to be aunties.. haiz...

Me using the aromatherapy oil le.. so nice.."100% pure essential oil s blend of lavender, melissa, marjoram sweet and orange" wah, so many things.. feeling sleepy le,, haha just kidding.. hahaha

Well going to watch Tsubasa Chronicle episode 2 now... byebyez=]

2005-09-15T02:25:00.000+08:00

ahhh.. am i paranoid?!!!!

I keep thinking of the results, whenever my mind is free.... Keep worrying that I can't all A or Zs... Revisited my coursework grades... like kinda wasted if I dun get alot of Zs or all As.. However, I was so damn slack during the exams period... practically didn;t revised much... then now, worry so much... Thinking back... i really deserved a slap during the revision week... Did so well for coursework, then the main exams, didn't study hard.. then make my Z dream so shaky and uncertain...

Although I know that I can do all the papers, but considering the very last min revision, I might do something wrong without realizing... and MM 10 marks gone le, dun think the rest are full marks for tt paper.. Well my Z hope for tt paper is moderation... haha.. i know it's bad.. but..

Regretful, regretted.. should have put in my 100% for the revision.... should have follow the revision plan, which included 2 weeks of revision... ahhh.. now it's too late.... shall anticipate with excitement and worries for the RESULTS.. can't wait for the revelation... I can't stand guessing what my results will be???? All Zs, hip hip hurray hurray hurray, All As thank god, some Bs.. cryz...

Ok, I'm mad, ignore me.. so late le dun sleep go and think so much about results.. something tt's already fixed, but yet to announce..hmmmmmm...

Let's divert.............

My anime downloading list is so so long... yeah!!!. Now catching 3 anime titles... As usual the great BLEACH, and Suzuka (which i discovered during the revision week, ops) and another one which I found today... Tsubasa Chronicle.. saw the pic of the anime, nice, and cute..and captured my attention... the bittorrent is until episode 21.. haha.. I'm downloading 10 one shot now.. still downloading... should I leave it overnight to download then i sleep.. haha but scare my cute precious laptop explodes.. Du Ba Bommmm!!! haha choi, touch wood...

The bottomline is, I'm a real serious super addicted anime fan..... Last time got control coz no money to buy alot.. now got to know Bittorent and animesuki... the portal to unlimited animes.. haha so cannot control my interest for anime... haha..hahahahahahha

New bleach blogskin

2005-09-14T13:19:00.000+08:00

Bleach Rulez!!!!!

Haha, blogging days have returned..

So how shall I spend my precious 1 week holidays before the internship??

Ermmmmz, guess I will just rest at home, haha, no place to go anyway and low on cash.. haiz... Taxi fare is draining away my fund.. sheesh.. Calculated, if i dun take cabs, i'll be damn rich sia..well can't help me.. travelling is kinda taxing for me.. especially when i need to change buses and use multi-model transport.. Wonder how am i going to survive travelling for my SIP... hope they can attach me to changi airport.. haha just take mrt directly to their basement and I'm at work place le.. Just dun send me to those ulu places, where i have to take many buses.. I dun like buses.. although they are better at offering "door-to-door services" in relative to train. haha ofcourse, taxi is stil the best, but flipside is it's too expensive.. ahhh.. I need concession for cabs.... haha, i'm talking crap here..

Seriously, i'm really looking forward to the SIP, hope i can excel there and get a pass with commendation.. hehe=]

2005-09-13T03:08:00.000+08:00

Hurray!!! Exams have just finished, yesterday at 11.30 pm.. haha.. A period of guilt and self-reproach has finally passed.. why not stress rite? haha..

Well well, for this examination period, i have not been exactly revising.. Guess average for a subject, i only spent less than a day, effectively revising.. Most are last min, really last min revision.. haha.. I'm shocked at this phenomenon... Even though i've been telling myself to revise the whole day everyday, it didn't seem to be going into my head... When ever I flip open my book, i started stoning, and then easily very easily distracted to do other things..

I've never experience such slackness before.. Last time, the worse, i'll still spend 2 or 3 days revising for each subjects.. and would revise for at least half a day.. more than 6 hours.. haha.. I'm getting out of hand, it's because of complacency or, something's wrong with my motivation or brain.. haha..

Well, fortunately, the good things about year 3 subjects is that as long as you understand the subjects reasonably well, you can do the papers.. At least I was able to do all the questions, or rather i know how to do all/most of the questions, except MM which i know how to do, but no time..haiz.. anyway, it's over...

Right now having my one week break before going for my internship, at "God knows what" company.. waiting to be announced.. haha... At the same time, I'm waiting for my results which will be released on 23 Sep 2005..Next Friday.. haha, I shall keep my fingers crosses.. Shit, I've actually set a target of all Zs this semester(in fact i do it all the sems, haha). Will I be able to reach my goals of getting my 20 distinctions by this sem? I need 4 more to reach this goal...I Prayz=]

2005-09-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

oh no, what have i been doing during the study week, i have been practically slacking the whole week, especially daytime.. i ended up only revising between 12 am to 4 am.. barely 4 hours a day..and worse, during the 4 hours, i'm not really studying...

Everyday when i wake up, i planned to start revising seriously during the daytime,, and planned to study continuously throughout the day..... but i've not yet realized this plan, even though it's already mon, i've having exams starting on wed.. and wed,thurs, fri is packed with 4 papers,,,, I know it, i know that if i dun start to revise seriously, i'll be courting doom... and i'll lose my distinction dream.. but i can't control myself, i can;'t concentrate.. i get distracted easily.. i get sleepy when i get near the notes and books.. WHAT on EARTH am i doing? exam is so near, and i still dun feel the urgency yet... everyone is revising so hard, but i'm slacking all the way? GOSH, Someone pls wake me up.. slap me, splash me whatever... i just wanna start to revise efficiently...

My precious brain, pls start working now... i've got no time to waste now..... if i dun start revising, i'll not do so well in exams.. pls, grant my wish...thanks alot...

2005-08-30T01:44:00.000+08:00

Why am I so so slack.. I'm ashamed to realize that I've only covered one transport topic thus far.... I'm shocked that my revision is progressing at a retardedly slow speed... I must really buck up!!! Seriously...

By the way, my new singnet wireless internet package arrived today.. So fun.. they even delivered the free ibook to my doorstep.. keke and helped me configured for the wireless.. so right now, 3 computers sharing internet on one modem... without any wire.. keke so cool right... So basically i spent the day, testing the wireless and playing with the ibook.. it's so beautiful, so cute, so fun to play with.. the free software included in the operating system, is frankly speaking more interesting than those in window.. keke... However, the functioning of MAC is alot different than window.. but not really that hard to use la.. just need to get used to it... infact, i'm getting used to it already.. Hope today is the first and last day me playing the ibook, at least until after the examinations=] hehe...

Now i shall go back to think how i must tackle my slackness.. hope i can start to revise at optimum condition by tmr.. =] ciaoz

Ibook

2005-08-20T16:46:00.000+08:00

Recently, I have been contemplating if i should take up this promotion. For your information, I am currently paying $79 per month for 512k singnet broadband service. The plan above is 10000k singnet broadband..for just $88...

The most attractive part is that they are giving away a free 12" ibook G4 (just released 1 or 2 months ago) and a thomson speedtouch 585 wireless modem.. For this modem, just need to purchase the wireless usb adaptor, 2 or more computers can share this internet access. 10000k broadband shared between 2 computers, means that each computer can have up to 5000k broadband access.. still very fast hor, even if share with 4 com, also very fast.. all at just one flat fee of $88 per mth.. hahaha...

I was a bit relunctant about the ibook la, because it runs on macintosh and i heard that it performs differently from the windows which most business students are using, in fact most people are using windows, haha.. However, found out that mac also has it's own version of microsoft office, with words, excel and powerpoint....but access is not included. the original software cost about $500 i think.. kinda worried that i might need to use access or promodel for the final year project..

yaa, today i mentioned to my dad about buying a laptop for me next year. I told him the current laptop is too heavy for me to bring to school... but he seemed unwilling to buy for me.. He said that i kept spending money, all the money that i have.. actually it's true la, I can't keep money with me... last year got a $1500 scholarship, my dad agreed to top up another 1000 for me to buy laptop, but i said maybe wait for a while, see if the price will drop or new model coming out... i ended up spending all of it.. haiz, thinking that i can apply scholarship again. Sadly, SHHK not giving any scholarship this year, no news of it.. and my dad also gave for more than 1000 when he struck 4d earlier...i spent it all also.. haiz... sometimes, i wonder how i spent all these money..

Well, looks that maybe i can take up the ibook and try to adapt to it... if can use, then dun nid to ask my dad to buy the laptop.. anyway, i like ibook also.. haha so nice... it's only the OS that's stopping me.. then i can use the money i earn in SIP to buy the microsoft office for macintosh.. guess, words, excel and powerpoint is good enough to perform basic project needs... then access and promodel can do in sch... or do in my that very heavy laptop.. haha..

So, in conclusion, i've decided to take up this promotion.. haha.. hope the ibook is not out of stock. after the bill is cleared.. i'll go apply for it.. hehe =]

2005-08-18T16:24:00.000+08:00

Yeah, my group got the highest in the level for LOMe project... 14/15 for report and 4.7/5 for presentation.. haha total is 18.7, hahaha.. 94% leh... i think for project it's very very high le.. hehe so happy..can't help smiling...

Finally all the projects are submitted... now can start to plan for revision for exams le... very fast man.. Guess i'll start revision on sat. tmr rest also.. hehe.

By the way, the singnet's free ibook promotion is over le, haiz, they said 31 aug then over one... but removed the promotion already le... they removed it on the day i decided to take up the promotion and try out apple's macintosh system.. Shouldn't have considered so long.. but nvm, guess window is still the best option for me... looking at various laptops now... my most important criteria is light-weight.. coz i can't really carry heavy weight area.. think 2.5 kg is the max for me.. saw a few 1.1 -1.5 kg laptop, coolz, fujitsu, samsung and acer.. which one should i buy?

2005-07-24T02:36:00.000+08:00

Ok, although I mentioned I will stop blogging, I shall blog today because I felt sad today.

From thursday to today(sat), I actually fell down outside for no apparent reason, and I couldn't get up by myself, the kind passerbys had to carry me up..

Thursday I fell down while walking along bugis street, fortunately that lane wasn't crowded. I think the plastic bag i was holding hit a metal bar, and that mild shock caused me to fell. The stall owners were very kind la, they brought me to sit on the curb and later carried me up. I told the uncle that my legs are weak and I had no strength to stand up. Then he advised me not to come out if I know my legs are weak.. This remarks is quite hurting la, considering what my docter consulted me a few hours earlier at KKH. However, that uncle meant well and it's true.

Sat, I fell down right in front of my mum at the lift there. It was then she found out that I couldn't stand up by myself. She struggled to help me up. I think she felt sad to know abt it la.. I also felt sad that she found out, and I caused her to be sad..

Then after KTV session, went home on mrt, then decided to go to Hougang mall and have a good meal and walk around.. UNfortunately, I fell down again in the middle of the pathway. I just fell down like that. As usual, i couldn't stand up and had to kneel/sit in the middle of everyone. I became the spectable there, everyone was looking at me, wondering why I was sitting there. Then some kind passer-bys came and asked me if i need up. They said they were shocked, coz they saw me just fell like that.. they thought i fainted siaz. The auntie very nice, tried to help me up, but guess i'm too heavy for her la..Then some uncles came along, and asked me to just sit down and stretch my leg.. then I told them that maybe they can help me stand up, and i'll be ok. But they scare later I'll fall again, think they thought i had cramps. (but it's not cramp la, just that no strength to stand up). Ended i sat there, then suddenly the auntie and uncles went back. Well, they are not obliged to help me la, furthermore, they already tried to, but cannot..they are still kind souls..

So I sat there for abt 10-15 min.. I was almost like going to cry loh.. so sad about my illness, why i can't even stand up.. then pondered abt the fact that my doctor kept encouraging me to use wheel-chairs, think it's for my safety... do i really have to subject myself to wheel-chair now?!! all these just came to me.. so sad............

While i was sitting, realize that a kind gentleman was taking glance at me time to time, think he witness my fall and everything.. think he didn't know what to do.. Then after his gf came, he came to me and ask me if i need any help.. He's so kind and helpful.. He carried me up, and i stood up.. but he was still concerned and worried abt it.. so he carried me all the way to a bench to sit down.. Yeah, really thankful and appreciate his kindness.. I thank him and his gf many times. I'm so grateful to him, really.. If i see him again, i must thank him again...

Guess, going out is posing more dangers to me now.. what if i fall down while crossing the road, who will help me up? guess all the cars would be horning at me... what if i fall down while going down stairs, i might be rolling down instead....I think i will go out less ba, only when neccessary, unless got ppl accompany me... I really scare, very scare that it turn up that i might really need a wheel-chair... I don't want, I don;'t want to be on wheel-chair,, I wanna continue walking like all my friends do..I wanna go uni, and go into work life smoothly.. ahhhhhh... my condition recently is not favorable, I seem to be weakening faster and faster day after day... *cry* Someone HELP me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-07-21T21:39:00.000+08:00

*Blogging shall cease temporarily*

Reason: Too busy with projects and stuff

Back?: Probably after the exams, or after SIP, or After FYP. haha

2005-07-20T19:09:00.000+08:00

Yeah!! Got back all my results for the mid-sem test liao. Results quite ok=] Just that has some careless mistakes here and there. Here's what i got:

LO measurement: 42/50
Transport mgt: 47/50
Quality mgt: 55/60
Material mgt: 42/50
Biochem log: 36.5/40

Hehe, so happy with my results, all As =]

2005-07-20T01:56:00.000+08:00

AHHHHH.... I HATE THAT PERSON !!!!!! ENOUGH SAID.

Who is he to question my quality and ability of the project work... who? who is HE to do that? Who is he to suggest that I'm not doing anything much for the project???????!!!! who is he to do that? I stayed in sch till 8.30 pm in the lab doing the project for many days...will he do that?

2005-07-17T19:56:00.000+08:00

Woke up this afternoon and saw my brother tidying up and cleaning the computer desk. Pretty surprised.. my brother actually took the initiative to do some housework.. hehe.. He cleared away a bag of "rubbish".. but then left it on the mid-way of the living room, as expected one.. however, fortunately he left it there and did not throw away.. Coz I suddenly saw my lome project briefing document crushed in the bag.. oh my god... then i decided to do a QC inspection of the "rubbish".. to my horror, quite a number of useful stuff is inside the bag.. e.g statistics formula table, a cd of anime, thesaurus... haha.. I wonder how he decided to threw all these away???

Alot of things on my agenda now, LOMe projects and biochem.. I wanna complete them quickly, however, seems to encounter some critical problems for the lome observations.. some sample sizes are beyond our time limit.. even with another 1 month towards submission, it's still a bit rush though...hopefully can do other stuff of the project in parallel time frame as the observation..

School is re-opening tmr. Gonna commit much more time and effort towards school work and project liao.. So I may not be able to blog as often..

2005-07-16T02:15:00.000+08:00

Coolz, the nauseous feeling and sick stomach is finally cured.. So the immediate remedy for it is forced vomiting... I actually put my finger into my throat and pressed at some area, and I started vomiting, felt so relieved after that.. I should have done it earlier.. I suffered the whole afternoon..I shall not describe the vomi..keke..

Today very blur sia.. My buddy asked me to help him change the practical lesson time, then me blur and cancelled his practical test instead. Luckily managed to book back the test day, if not i'll feel so guilty man.. Well, I just woke up from nap and still feeling sick then. Think I mistook the "transaction date" for the date of the lesson, and just nice the transacton date for the TP is 16 Jun, my fren asked me to change for the 16 Jul one.. Jun and Jul looked almost the same.. keke. *Sorry Gilbert.. sorry for the shock caused*

Actually planned to celebrate belated birthday of 2 of our buddies one(Johhny and Nick). But nicky can't make it, guess he probably needs to prepare for his trip(lucky man, 3 weeks of holidays for the supposedly mid-sem test, keke, coz all his subjects are project-based, so he's going for holidays again.. so envious. haha). So the celebration plan was postponed to 2 weeks later. No choice ba, everyone is busy.

*Johnny hope u dun mind rite. hee* hopefully we can fix a beer session tmr, keke =]

My classmate got feedback from lecturers that the year 3 subjects, the mid-sem test results not really that good. Haiz, i must say that yea 3 subjects are really more challenging.. However, I hope I'm not in the "didn't perform wel lis... Please, give me all As... Well,I'll find out coming, mon to wed to get back all my papers... God bless =]

Yawnz. gonna sleep liao. Nite nite and sweety dreamz=]

2005-07-15T02:40:00.000+08:00

Ok. I fell sick after drinking some very oily Chicken and Ginseng soup my mum cooked... or is it the ice-cream i ate earlier? haiz. I've feeling nauseous since 10 plus... still feeling nauseus, but can't vomit out.. haiz.... I dare not even sleep now, scare later will vomit while i sleep... right now, i'm carrying a plastic bag with me...

2005-07-13T04:02:00.000+08:00

Today( I mean tueday) went to school at 10 for LOMe project meeting and Biochem log meeting. Coolz, spent 4 hours straight for projects. hehe.

LOMe the progress is not bad..though not really fast la... Started troubleshooting and planning for the actual observation schedules. It is planned to conduct the observations for the next 2 weeks, 2 hours each for 10 days. Wah, massive right. Coz we need between 800 to 1000 observations of all the facilities in the library, level 1 to 8, no kidding. Furthermore, this is only one part of the many parts. Hopefully we can finish it as planned, so that we can start on the time study of the book loan system..and to tidy up the report for submission. Cannot really rush it, due to the constraints all over. Hey group!!=] Let us work together as best as possible to give a nice report and score high A ok=] jia you!!!

Biochemical logistics just kick-started today. After discussing and identifying the scope and requirement, went to talk to Mr teo to clear all the doubts we have. We had a meaningful consultation indeed. Biochem log project seem relatively light, hopefully can finish up within 1-2 weeks=]

Then after that went to eat chicken cutlet, after went to toilet. Same kind of incident, as I walked out of the toilet, a group of guys were also walking towards the toilet, as usual they seemed quite stunned to see me out from the gents, keep looking at me sia, me so paiseh and dare not look up.. I think I saw/heard them laughing a me.. probably thinking "How come that ger went to the gents ah? She blur is it? wahahaha".. I don't think i look like ger loh, me not going to cut my hair also... haha.. Heck care them..

Then, headed for the computer lab to do up the library floor plans using Visio.. Due to the strange shape of the library, and diff shapes for some of the levels, had hard time doing it.. It's so hard to align the shelf and tables neatly along the curve.. I can't fit the project room layout along the curved wall.. sianz.. guess maybe i'll just draw the project rooms out.. Didn't manage to achieve much la...Today only did, level 6 and level 2. Left level 1,3,4,5. Hopefully can finish all the plans by Thursday.. This is another contraint, I don't have and can't afford microsoft visio at home, so have to do school to do up the visio. hehe..

So i did project from 10 am all the way to 7 pm, with 30 min break only. haha. My friend told me I looked a bit tired, when she saw me..

Then went straight to my choir BBQ at pasir ris..I lost my way man.. walked until pit 14 and realized that me in the wrong direction. so walked all the way to pit 1. The fisherman village is so big and long man. walked till i so tired. Finally found them,,, the pit area is so so dark.. keke and so many ants.. Ate some only. Vivien's chicken wing wrapped in foil is so YUMMY!!! wonder what sauce she put inside.. hehe.

Ya.. Happy 21st Birthday!! Johhny!!!! hehehe, wah, grow up liao, now join me in adulthood. hehe Congrats

2005-07-11T03:01:00.000+08:00

Ok, i've logged in, but don't know what to blog... guess there's nothing special today.. so ciao =]

2005-07-09T21:15:00.000+08:00

I suddenly felt lonely..where are all my "true friends"? dotz...z.z.z where did I get such feeling from..? I better erase it from my mind, before it starts to become emotional complexity..

Well well well,it's the start of my one week break, and i starting to get bored? strange.. Think it's because I didn't sleep yesterday, that's why i'm a bit weird today.. the central nervous system not functioning well now.. But i can't sleep yet, have to tahan till normal sleeping time... I don't want my day to become nite, and nite become day again..

Actually in the afternoon went tampines mall to walk walk.. then at the lift there, one person looked at me surprised, but i returned with a blank stare.. bad rite, like i said, didn't sleep for 1 day mah. then after a few sec he left, it suddenly struck me that he looked familiar, I think he might be one of my friends.. well like very long time didn't see him liao, and he's in his army uniform just now.. then tried to find him, but he left to don't know where liao. Then I thought for a while, i thought he's Yumeng, so i sms him.. ops. wrong person. keke.. anyway, you yuan hui zai jian mian de....

What should i do now?
1) Pack my very very messy room
2) Plan LOMe project, and ofcourse finish up all the visio floor plans but can only do in sch, cos home no microsoft visio, and it's so expensive, cannot download also..(y can't they sell it cheaper a bit...)
3) Start & organize biochem log project
4) Finish up all tutorials
5) Buy a pair slipper from beatle bug
6) plan my buddies' birthday celebration ( but me really bad in arranging outings, if i arrange, will be ktv one.. keke)
7) Buy my buddies' present..
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.not forgetting the choir acapella workshop
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See actually there's so many things I've to do

2005-07-09T17:16:00.000+08:00

Yeah, cleared all the test papers already... Haiz this sem super slack sia, although manage to cover all the topics, still very disappointed with my productivity for revision this semester.. it's like almost last min loh.. almost like started the day before, after 10 pm, when the papers are at 11 am. Haiz, wonder what my results will be for the mid-sem test.. Although i know how to attempt all the questions, but i keep my finger crossed la.. wish me good luck k..=]

My brain is quite "creepy".. during the test this sem, some part of the paper triggered images in my brain.. it's like the mental image of the lecture slides pop out in my head all of the sudden..but then quite blur la.. i couldn't see the content clearly mentally.. it's like i know the answers are from that slide.. but i can't mentally see the words clearly... is it some psychic power.. keke. ignore me, i'm talking crap...... wohahaha..

Realize something... Today for biochem log paper, i was seated right under the clock, but i can't see the time la..neither did i wear a watch today... So sorta naturally churn out the answers and write out very fast..think sub-consciously i was worried that i couldn't finish the paper la.. and can't check time... after i finished everything i still have about 15 min left...and i filled out almost all the writing space liao.. so dun think can write more.. so i checked the content, my handwriting.. etc.. realized that my handwriting really sux...

anyway, test is over,, let's not talk about it liaoz...

Actually kinda lost interest in blogging.. feel that my life is quite dry.. nothing to talk about except school work and more school work.. but then poly is the place i derive most satisfaction from.. haha, although me not that active in CCA la..

You know what.... more and more strangers are mistaking me as a ger.. everytime i walked into the gents, all the guys inside were stunned to see me... so i purposely went to use the cubicle outside, to show them that i'm really reallly really a guy..I really look like girl meh? frankly speaking? and more and more ppl are calling me "xiao jie".. today at tampines mall 2 China guys who wanted me to help them tak pic addressed me as xiao-jie leh.. keke.. wonder if i walk into a gers' toilet, would the gers inside get shocked.. keke..*dun worry, i won't dare to try one* haha

think i blogged too much liao.. time to go.. byez....

2005-07-03T02:36:00.000+08:00

There's something very wrong with me, very wrong with my brain.. I'm suppose to be revising now, instead of blogging.. My brain seems to be "under-functioning".. gosh.. I can't concentrate.. and keep getting sleepy spells on and off. I wanna revise, but i can seem to focus.. die die..I went shopping yesterday and met up my buddies just now for drink.. that serious... For precious whole day of sat.. I've only ONLY covered 2 topics.. oh no... troubles are coming to me, if i keep compromising..

Just side track a bit:
Had 2 very strange encounters at the male toilet.. 2 guys who are going into the toilet, scrutinized me, ya,, really scrutinized me.. while i was coming out.. they look and look like as though they are telling me "hey u're a girl, what are you doing in guy's toilet?" Yeap.. i can read these messages ouzzing out of their eyes.. so embarrassed.. I really look like a girl meh? just that my hair is longer mah.. hehe.. actually last time also had all these types of strange encounters la.. hehe

2005-06-28T03:41:00.000+08:00

Argh.. it's already 3.40 a.m, and I've lesson at 9 am, why am i still awake? I just can't slumber into my dreamland.. I see things in my head ...NVOCC , quality costs.. sampling.... dotzzz..zz..z.. Why do school stuff keep appearing in my head, when i'm on my bed, lights off, supposed to be sleeping..

Haiz, since i've to wake up at 6 am. left only 2 hrs and 20 min to sleep.. so no point sleeping la.. later can't wake up worse...guess i;ve to skip choir today liao.. sorry alwyn.

Well, perhaps i should draft out my reivison plan and start revising now... byez

2005-06-25T01:39:00.000+08:00

Finally the mini QM and biochem log assignments are completed and submitted.. and now, 11 more days to mid-sem tests.. 5 straights days of test, with 3 very qualitative subjects, 1 very tedious quantitive subject and 1 qualitative + quite massive quantitative subject.. kekekeke. Looks like if i dun prepare well enough, i may not do so well.. So i must start to revise asap..

Before the revision and mid-sem tests, school has posed us with a very tricky and difficult situation.. FYP GROUPING!!!!!!!!! Yes, it's very hard to settle into a proper and functional group with the many recommendations, or i would say contraints set in the grouping..

1) the grp's compentence level should be balance out(i.e should only be 1 dhl or very strong student to lead) + a few good students and afew not so good students..
2) only 1-2 guys to a group..
these 2 contraints are already an headache, not to mentioned that everyone is acting so fast.. almost all the frens i know are already grouped liao.. So i may have to group with ppl i dun know.. and everyone is like snatching for people liaoz. I'm a GPA x.xx(censored due to personal secrecy, wanna know, find out from me) achiever, still landed up in such a situation..

Right now everyone is snatching people by declaring their GPA first, ya, although strange but it's true.. it reflects how desperate ppl are already..maybe i should do that too.. haha.

Stress by the grouping thingy.. hopefully i can finalize by tmr, so that i can concentrate on the revision.. wish me good luck.. I didn;'t mean to be proud.. just that i'm distressed by the FYP grouping..

2005-06-18T14:11:00.000+08:00

Just came back from the academic award ceremony.. Although quite "tramatising" as in everyone is looking at me limping across the stage, and i think i walked very slow then.. haha. But overall, still happy..

So I got Top in Operations Management prize award, sponsored by TNT Express (Singapore) and Director's Honour list award.. Thank you TNT and TP..There's only 3 awards for LOM la, so got 1 also not bad liaoz=] Wanna know who got the other 2 subject awards and top in CS2? haha find out yourself=]

Suddenly felt very sleepy and drowsy, i better go rest liaoz=]

2005-06-11T02:00:00.000+08:00

haha, my blog is almost dying.. Well, since school has started, thought should focus much more time towards school stuffs, especially when i'm in year 3 now...

Well, the subjects this semester is abit harder, but still manageable =].. Some of the projects are already lauched, project progress didn't run very smoothly.. Don't know why, I've feelings that the group members are not really "intensive" into the projects yet, it's like not concentrating and like thinking about other things during project meetings..and i didn't manage to improve it.. they're my good friends, so didn't wanna impose my ways of doing things too hard. Well, because of the many uncertainties contained in that subject..

LOMe project has also started...we are doing on the library (the whole library, 10 floors). Have to observe the layout and activities inside it.. It looks daunting on the surface la... But i think maybe it's not really that hard after all.. just that need for time and effort to do.. I can see that the others memebers seeemed to be quite frightened by the seemingly massive scale on doing a measurement project on the lib.. Then I also heard that there's a guy in my grp quite "notorious" for submitting a diff proj report from the grp. Well, I know it's bad to have a advance perception about someone, especially thru others' mouth.. I'll try to clear that from my head and come out with preventive measures to avoid such thing from happening.. haha I'm a TQM person, not QC =P.. Well, for LOMe grp, there seem to be kinda "cold barrier" among the members.. hope the barriers will be broken off soon..

Well, guess maybe it's time for me to step in more actively and impose some aspects of "daniel" into my proj grps, to at least catalyze the progress a bit... I can't stand slow progress and "do-like-never-do" situation =]

2005-05-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah... On sat my frens have been telling me that people have received their DHL notification letters. However my dad was overseas so i can't check..

My dad just came back today, straight away I asked him for the mail box key.. There's 2 TP letters for me. wondering how come there's 2, duplicate letters??

When I reached home, I opened them.. wow, so happy. I got the DHL and academic prize. Yeah... Finally. but they say AN academic prize. so meaning i only got 1. and they also never tell me what that prize is.. so funny onez...but still very happy la.. Don't know what the prize is? hehe Hope it's best LOM junior award.. however, guess very hard to get ba.. LOM alot of ppl got GPA of 3.9+ also.. so guess subject best also not bad ba.. hehe=]

*Ya, ppl, if i accidentally boast(hao lian) too much to you all, pls stop me and forgive me if it becomes too irritating ok.=]. I always have this problem one..coz too happy liao and sometimes cannot controll...you understand such feeling rite.. =]..just ask me to shut up, and i will, without grudge =]

However, now there's a big dilenma liao.. I actually don't plan to go for the ceremony one.. but if i dun go, i've to wait very long to know what prize i get leh.. I can't stand such long anticipation.. and I a bit scare they might forfeit for academic prize(me kiasu rite, but i don't think they are so bad la.. hehe).. Guess, i'll see first la.. Hopefully they can make special arrangement for me.. like let me stay on the stage and leave thru the stage after taking the award. Really hope la.. coz in my heart, I really wanna go for the ceremony one,, but my physical condition will cause alot of problems.. and I'm afraid will trouble the teacher-in-charge... hai, I really for "stairs-phobia" and phobia tt ppl might see me as "handicapped" sia, actually i admit i'm partially handicapped la.. but i still dun wanna ppl think of me like that.... How I wish i can overcome such phobia

2005-05-21T12:23:00.000+08:00

Hehe, really anticipating school re-opening. This year's Director's Honours List(DHL) is out so fast man... Heard that some ppl have already received the notice letter. Well, I'm still not sure if I got it... My dad didn't check the mailbox and he had already flown overseas yesterday( I came to know abt the dhl thingy yesterday night) Well, the mailbox is special.. it is because that mailbox key broke into 2 parts, the tail was stuck inside the lock and the head is with my daddy.. Thus he's the only one who can open the mailbox,, and he doesn't have the habit of opening the mailbox, everyday, think he opens it once a week only.

Hee, I'm getting used to my hair liao, although still find it a little too flat, but it's alright.. hee

The china students are calling me back every now and then to ask me help them do things.. haiyo.. even though I've already finished doing all their important stuff(actually I've already done things beyond what I should do loh).. Maybe I shouldn't add "feel free to call me if you have any problem" during our supposedly last good bye.. Usually it's polite to say that mah. but they don't have to treat this word so seriously ba.

Yesterday, one of them wanted me to bring him to Bank of China and other places. but I told him me not free this morning and ask him if he can go himself... Then he just called me to ask me if there's post office branches in other places like sentosa and bugis. both doesn't have.. oh man, they are treating me like streetdirectory, branches locator for banks, post office. etc etc..

I'm a student afterall loh, need to prepare for school reopening. where got so free to keep travelling around with them.. hope they'll be more independent la..

2005-05-18T01:39:00.000+08:00

Ya, I finished everything with the china students at about 2 pm, the during the long interval between, 4 hours to choir, i walked around tampines mall and centuary sq. Then it suddenly struck me, "Why don't I do the long waited hair straightening since there's so much time, and daddy just gave me another 1 week allowance in advance" So me explore around, and found out that Supercut having a 30%, Soft straightening for just $96(performed by senior), that's quite cheap for supercut. However, calculated that I'll only have $50 for last till next friday, should I go into supercut..(actually I use less than $5 a day, i mean non-school days). Pondered for about 15 min, walk here and there, peeking at my hair. haha =P

and tada:

Normal condition

After waxing and some styling

So guess u already know my final decision, haha. Can't resist the temptation la.. hehe..
However, I suffered mild cognitive dissonance after I came out from the salon, and saw myself again in the toilet.. It was actually much nicer and longer before she cut.. After she finished cutting, it looks a bit weird, she layered too much, now my hair so short and looks like so little hair liao. and my fringe is gone, haiz, why the hair stylists always cut away the fringe one, especially chinese lady hair stylist.. so sad.. Well, maybe I'm just not used to layered hairstyle.

The stylist, mavis told me that she cut in such a way that if I style it using wax or "mud" it'll look very nice and stylist. I prefer traditional ordinary hair that requires no styling. Tried waxing the hair at home, haha resulted in the pic above, looks a bit funny rite.. haha . I'm newbie in serious hair styling la, someone help me haha. =P

Strange enough, I paid in total $116 for the straightening, and unfortunately, after I grow my hair so long to straighten, she went to cut it short, i saw so many straightened hair on the floor, very xintong(heart pain), crying out inside "My $$$ are thrown on the floor..

What do u all think, is it really ugly? or just psychological influence on my part?.. Someone commented that I look boiboi in this new hairstyle.. but no matter how i look, it just look funny.. haha.. Maybe i just need to get used to it.=]

2005-05-17T22:42:00.000+08:00

Yeah, finally finished the things I've to do with the China students..

9am met Zhang Qi and Yilian at Tampines MRT to bring them to collect their student passes, then we took a silent ride to ICA..yeah, really silent, we never talk to each other while on the train, guess probably everyone was tired=]. After we reached ICA, they went to queue up for their numbers and I went to toilet. Webber(another china student under my care, who's not suppose to collect his student pass today.) called me and started to bombard me why he can't collect his student pass today, how come his fren who did it yesterday could collect it today, why there's inconsistency in the system..etc etc.. headache man..Haiyo, how am i suppose to know, the officer asked him to collect on thurs one, not me. Then he asked to me check for him if there's a time restriction for student pass collection. After i checked, I called him back to tell him can collect after 9 a.m, he started to bombard me with questions again. After I explained, he just hung up on the phone, ON ME!! after making an unhappy sound..Aiyo.. So rude, I was doing him favours for so many days already, he should jolly well be at least polite to me. I was a bit unhappy with him, hence I'll not call him to see if he'll have any problem collecting his student pass coming sat, just let him settle stuff himself, since he dun wanna follow my pace.

Then, saw him at ICA, with his other china frens. The..... why didn't he check himself? Guess probably he thought he could collect the student pass earlier if he appear today. Unfortunately, he couldn't.. told him already.. ok, enough of webber, he really got on my nerve today.

After Zhang Qi and Yilian took their number, we went to sit down at the waiting area. We started talking... Suddenly, Zhang Qi held my hand with both of his hands and pulled me to his shoulder there( I was standing behind), I was so shocked and surprised he did that. Then I think I was afraid people might see it and think otherwise, so I immediately, reflex action, withdrew my hand from him,. that instance was quite awkward.. then he turned around and gave me the smiling and act cute face.. haha.. Well, maybe in China this is a gesture of friendship, but I'm not used to it.. hehe

And finally, the collected their student passes and off we went to Tampines central to do their bank account. They're rich guys sia, straight away deposited more than $1000 each, they were also issued atm card.. then very funny, they went to played the atm machine outside, and asked me to teach them how to use... after that, we went to McDonald's to help them complete filling up the enrollment and finance documents. Zhang Qi ordered a fries and a drink, and me a drink also, I paid for them, and he didn't pay me back.. Nvm, just treat them. hehe since they are nice and polite people.

Tada, all the important documents are done.. see follow me get their stuff done so fast.. =P, actually it is one of the shortest time they can complete all their documents. Wish you good luck webber.. =P

Although i finished all their documents, they are free to find me during their study in TP if they have any problem (however, I'll only be in TP for the next 12 months.) Guess with my influence, they definately will choose to come LOM one.. haha just kidding =P

2005-05-16T01:21:00.000+08:00

haha, this is hilarious, it it taken from sorta a blog written by an American teaching English in Japan. I think it's a true account of cultural(language) difference between the American teacher and Japan school girls. I was laughing all the way while reading through. haha.

Ops, realized that the author has assumed copyright protection for his content, so pls refer to the following link =]:

"I Say the Darndest Things
http://outpostnine.com/editorials/teacher40.html

Ya, another thing, just found that that there will be a new Harry Potter series premiering, think it's "Goblet of Fire". You can watch the triller from this link =]

http://www.apple.com/trailers/wb/harry_potter/thegobletoffire/large.html
(note: Apple quicktime required)

Nice, I wanna watch when it's out in november

2005-05-16T00:43:00.000+08:00

Well, since I've nothing better to do now, decided to update my blog a little. hehe.

Today(I mean sunday) woke up at around 5 p.m. wah, was a little shocked, because I actually slept at 1 a.m the previous day. So I slept for 16 hours in total. That's slightly scary. Probably my body is overworked from bring the China students around, settling their documents. Thankfully, I still have Monday to rest. I'm bringing them to collect their student passes on Tues at ICA, then hopefully can open the bank account for them. I hope that they dun wanna make ezlink card.. hehe then tues would probably be my last day of doing the mentorship, provided that another student who is collecting on sat, would not meet with any problems, like can't get hold of a cashcard with $140 topped up. basically, for this whole week, i did not have a life of my own, everything evolved around these china students. Actually the experience wasn't that bad afterall la, just troublesome and tiring. Anyway, they showed that they are quite appreciative of what with do..i think they said "thank you" indirectly. =]

Recently my crazy enthusiam for anime seems to be fading off. which is a good sign, especially when school is re-opening soon. but I'm still waiting for Inuyasha, which cheng you is still holding on.. hope he'll pass to me on the next choir practice..

My throat giving me problem for the past 1 week. Recovered on Thurs(as least i still can sing high notes) then started coughing again.. Hopefully I can get completely well by tmr=]

2005-05-14T23:06:00.000+08:00

The "mentorship" thingy is so tiring.. I've been doing the stuff almost everyday from Monday to Today.

Mon, met up with the China students, too late for medical check-up so just brought them to walk around, bring them to their respective houses, show them the travel route. etc..

Tues, met them early in the morning to go to Raffles Hospital for their medical checkup. After that brought them shopping around bugis junction, went to tampines to help them change something. In the evening I went for choir.

Wed, finally can rest..

Thurs, went to Raffles Hospital to collect their medical results, went back to school hoping to find them, but they went home. So went to check with Jimmy Yeo about some documents.

Friday, went back to school to arrange date and time to make student passes. Also brought them around different offices in TP to settle some of their documents. Went library to check on bank requirements and chatted for a while there.

Sat, today. Met them at 7.30 am to go to ICA to do student pass. They reached at around 8 a.m. One of them didn't bring along an important embarkment card, so went back to take. Reached ICA at about 9 am, the queue was very long. After everything, realized that have to wait till next tues to collect the student pass. Then called webber(another china student), he just collected his medical report and on his way to ICA. So Zhang Qi and Yi lian went home first. Me and cheryl waited for Webber. After settling it, realized that Webber can only collect his pass next thurs. Different from the other two. Headache.. However, he's ok with collecting himself. Unfortunately, can only pay by Nets or Cashcard, which he doesn't have. Suggested him to buy a cashcard, and ask one of the lecturer to top up for him. ( will see back, maybe i've to go down with him another time afterall)

Then in the evening went for Grandpa's birthday celebration at his place. Felt very distant and unfamiliar with my relatives, not good man,,,

Mentorship

2005-05-10T06:03:00.000+08:00

Argh. the mentorship thingy for the new china freshmen is so tiring sobz sobz. The lecturer really misuse the word, felt a bit cheated, but guess I can't back out. It is really just "Tour guide" and their agent for all their important documents: Health checkup, Student pass, Ezlink card and POSB bank account.

Yesterday went into the lt 17 for the briefing shocked. Mr Daniel Yeow was talking about the checkup and etc thingy and I was like "huh?! isn't it suppose to be mentoring?". I only know Cheryl there, she was also quite shocked haha. Like must do so many things one. Somemore it's a 2 days thingy. So long.

Cheryl and I took a group of 3 china students who are going to take LOM. They are quiet and we are also quiet type. haha But we managed to interact later la. First stop, went to Raffles Clinic at DBS, Tamp to check out the service. They don't have X-ray, and somemore must wait 3-4 days for results, and they said they had too many appointments for the day liaoz. No choice, then I called Raffles Hospital to check. Not good either. The receptionist said: " Can la, you can come down. But we have 80 patients in queue now, are we're closing at 5.30 sharp" It was about 4 something then. The.... just tell me cannot take in anymore mah. But not bad la, just nid to wait 1 day for the result. So I'm bringing the China guys there for checkup today.

Yesterday walked till my leg pain, till i nearly drop-out. keep walking and walking. and I was sick yesterday, serious sorethroat, then still have to talk and talk and talk. We bring them to buy the things they want. They just can't buy at tampinese mall. everything want cheaper(but they are nice guys, so dun blame them, they are tight on budget also). They dun know how to take bus from school to their house, and from their house to school. We have to identify their blocks on the map and try to bring them to their block. Then told them how to walk to sch and what bus to take. blah blah blah. Do till 6 something.

Today meeting them at 9 am at tamp mrt, hope they remember how to go there.. haha

Today's program. 1) Health check-up @ Raffles hospital, 2) Apply for Student pass @ ICA, 3) Apply for Ezlink card(which seems not possible).

I checked out the ICA website, the procedures for foreign student pass changed liao. Now must apply through internet, and must have a few more documents in order to apply online, which i don't think those foreign students have or know about. Working days needed: 3 days. Actually can apply by going there la, but need 5 working weeks, siao ah. The school needs to fill up a form,(which mr Daniel yeow didn't tell us yesterday, if not we would have printed out and complete it yesterday. The briefing was so brief and like "anyhow do one". The instructions by mr yeow mentioned tt just nid to bring 3 documents down and 1 day can get liaoz. Cannot be the ICA website is wrong right.

This is problematic. Without the student pass, ezlink card and bank account cannot be completed. And now, I've to bring them for check-up first to avoid the long afternoon queue, then after that go back to school to complete the neceesary forms. and then go to ICA in Lavendar to apply and wait(actually i can apply online for them in school la) so no choice.

Hope I'll survive today. I just still have to follow up with them ba. since the student pass needs to wait for quite long.

2005-05-09T06:27:00.000+08:00

I barely slept. Kept waking up to go to the toilet. Guess I drank too much water while taking medicine and trying to lubricate my sorethroat. Strange, I had cough syrup and 2 flu tablets, of which both are drowsy type, I should be sleeping very soundly.

At 5.30 my bro's alarm clock rang, but my bro didn't wake up. I was woken up instead. He has some important ns stuff at the Padang, for NDP one, he told me he would be confined if he's late for it earlier. Seeing my bro still sleeping like a log in the midst of the noisy alarm, I decided to wake him up. After he woke up, he went to sleep at the sofa again. So I ended up spending 30 min to wake him..

Just took another round of medicine, hope I can sleep for a while later. Saint Seiya Heaven's chapter download still has 1 more hour to completion. Yeah..

Internship

2005-05-09T01:18:00.000+08:00

Ok, it's about 14 more days to school re-opening and I've not done anything significant to self-secure my internship. Guess probably I'll just let the school allocate me to a company. Guess internship in any company is more or less about the same. It's mainly a matter of the distance to be travelled and type of job. I think it should be mainly office job. Furthermore, I can only do office job. haha.

Actually I've identified a few companies to send my resume to: DHL, FedEx, UPS, Schencher logistics, UTAC and Dell. However, I'm just too lazy to draft out resumes and coverletters for each of these companies. Perhaps I should ask Mrs Gan for help this afternoon, since I'm going to sch for the mentorship thingy.. Yupz, I shall do that, maybe she can help me shorten the troublesome procedures..=]

2005-05-06T00:14:00.000+08:00

S'pore student shuts down blog after threat of legal action By Valerie Tan, Channel NewsAsia

SINGAPORE: Blogs, or Web Logs, are electronic replacements for the good old pen-and-paper diary. But the similarities end there.

While a diary can only be read by its author, a blog can be read by anyone anywhere. One Singaporean scholar recently got into hot soup for making allegedly racist comments. Now, Channel NewsAsia found out that another Singaporean blogger, studying in the United States, has had to pull off his blog. The ex-scholar, pursuing his Masters in the States, has shut down his blog after apparently being threatened with legal action.

Lawyers say bloggers need to understand they can be sued for comments in cyberspace. Blogs are popular ways for the internet community to express their thoughts online. But Chen Jiahao, a Singaporean studying in the United States, might have taken it too far. He allegedly criticised the Agency for Science, Technology and Research (A*STAR)'s scholarship system, in his blogs.

The former Public Service Commission scholar is said to have criticised some of its policies requiring scholars to meet certain standards. Chen claimed he was threatened with legal action, in emails from A*STAR's chairman Philip Yeo. But A*Star has not confirmed or denied the incident.

It told Channel NewsAsia that its chairman was away until June 7 and could not give a camera interview. The blog was shut down last month. In its place is a note from Chen, under his blog name of AcidFlask, apologizing for making remarks "which Mr Yeo felt were defamatory to him and A*Star". He also promised not to mention the agency or Mr Yeo by name again at the website.

Lawyers say bloggers need to be aware that they need to be responsible for what they say online. "I think that if the writings in the blog were indeed defamatory, then the person who has been defamed can actually take legal action against the blogger. In other words, he can be sued," said Gilbert Leong, a partner at Rodyk & Davidson. - CNA/ir

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Wow, we can be sued for defaming comments on our own blog, which might inhibit people from putting what they strongly feel about certain stuff in their blog. What if the comments hold some truth in it. You know, you u felt strongly about something, especially something bad, you tend to write it a bit more extremely, with extreme opinions, sometimes even with tiny tiny trace of distortion. This is human behavior, self-serving bias. Well I don't know much about civil laws, perhaps the contents in the 2 blogs mentioned in the news are really too extreme. I guess, if they were to do a serious investigation of all the blogs. Many bloggers would be sued.

However, on the other hand, it's true that we have to be responsible for our speech, especially when blogs are becoming so popular la, with potentially high frequency of public access. If people utter untrue statement that affect other thing adversely, that other thing will suffer innocently. Without proper protection, blog might be misuse for evil action with the intention to malign the victims.

All in all, some level of legal liability for blog is appropriate, but human rights and freedom of speech must be taken into considerations too. There's must be a balance between legal intervention and people's liberty to express their heartfelt opinions in their very own, personal blog. Guess there might be a need to define the red line between defaming and criticizing. Bloggers should also be responsible enough to use blog for the right intention, and not for their selfish and harmful motives. This is to maintain the integrity of blog culture..

Breakthrough

2005-05-04T08:49:00.000+08:00

Haha, first breakthrough to the regulation of my biological clock. Finally woke up early in the morning since the past 1 month. Actually not really that successful though. Fell asleep at about 1 a.m after having 2 flu tablets(drowsy type), and for no apparent reason, woke up at 5 a.m suddenly.. Tried to go back to sleep after that, but don't seem to be able.. So might as well wake up.. Hopefully I'll be tired enuff tonight to sleep b4 12. Ops.. no today.. perhaps sleep at 12.30.. hehe got to watch Saint Seiya Hades Chapter Sanctuary final espisode at 12.. I'm not going to miss it man.. haha the most exciting part.. =P

An andes mosquito died horribly after sucking my blood. haha.. Saw the mosquito coming near my body and then disappeared.. then it appeared again within my sightline.. I reckoned it just sucked my blood. It seems to get too full from my blood, that its movement became retarded. I smacked it flat at the sofa.. Yucks, it's full of blood. My finger and sofa both gotten a smear of blood.. Hopefully that mosquito was not a degue-infected one..

Going to parkway later to meet my poly frens, for lunch and ktv.. hehe quite long never go KBox liao.. I can sing to my delight.. haha Perhaps I shall go there earlier to explore parkway parade a bit by myself.. think I've not been there for 10 years already. wow..

Hee, a good morning habit is to watch news.. I go watch channel news asia now=] byez..

2005-05-03T00:38:00.000+08:00

School is going to start soon, hee 20 more days, Yeah, so happy.. I know you must be thinking that I'm weird.. Seriously, I rather be in school than slacking at home. At least I can get meaningful for life in school. Furthermore, each day in school is enriching..

So what have I been doing for the past few days? I had been bothered by everything about network marketing, seriously. Have been reading forums about network marketing, particularly DW(Dolphin Warrior, which just doesn't admit that it is a networking marketing firm. They call them a 3-level marketing firm, something like that. Hello, it's a network marketing or MLM firm loh, just that they called it a nicer name to avoid association with the notorious mlm term)

Why am I looking at DW? My best fren joined this firm. I don't know what they said to him or how they impress my fren. My friend just believe that they are so good, that he can really strike rich there. They claim "in the future, all household will own a magnetic mattrass (which costs, $2.4K, and without official scientific evidence, heard about the electrostatic or magnetic therapy provided by some clinic, which was on the news recently? Based on scientific research and testing, that product does not have significant medical benefits. It was reported that perceived benefits felt were largely psychological. I hope that the magnetic bed will not be something similar to it. Perhaps, the experts should start to research on this too. Come on, I don't think any smart, educated consumer would want to pay $2.4 K for just psychological benefits rite.. Anyway, heard that their cost price is only abt $300-500 (might be lower) Isn't that profiteering? For a company with very low overhead costs, literally no marketing effort. Just commission, so that the agents can draw commissions at many levels.

And from various sources of readings, seems like they practice hard-selling, which is like a flaw network marketing concepts. The most powerful weapon in MLM is word-of-mouth publicity, which is one of the most effective promotional tools. It is essentially soft-selling, through reccomendations to friends and relatives, because the agents are using the products and believe that they are really good. This soft-selling essence is supported by top mlm firms in American and European countries. From the forums, it was said that DW and some other mlm firms in singapore teach their agents hard-selling skills. E.g Don't let customer have time to consider buying, pressure presentation to close deal during the first meeting with prospect. They even teach them to kneel to beg prospect to buy as desperate measure..many more lah...

According to Direct Selling Association of Singapore(DSAS) regulation, customers should be given 7 days cooling period to allow customer to consider if they wanna buy, that means no pressure tactics to close sales. Apparently, DW and some others are not registered under DSAS.. Isn't this questionable? Well the above with consumer as the stakeholder.

Right now, from the perspective of the agents themselves(NOT the top mlmers/Boss). I believe the mlm firms are so enthusiatic to recruits so many people because they are the firm's money-trees. I think the agents are something like their customers. The agents will sell to their relatives, family and friends, which they are draw commission. Then the person who recruit the agents, the recruiters can also draw commission from the agents sales, i think for some firm, the recruiter actually draw higher commission than the agents, who painstakingly sell the product.. Confusing huh?.. Ofcourse the residual profit, which is still a very high profit margin goes to the bosses of the firm.

Especially for products that are only sold one, inparishable products. The magnetic beds do not need to be replenished. Thus each relatives, friends will only buy from you once, that's all. Furthermore, probably each family will only buy one(unlikely they will buy 2 in the family, due to the exorbitant price) furthermore, it is unlikely that all your friends will buy from you.. about 30-40% will buy, that is if you're lucky to have supportive and rich network of people you know. So what happen if you are exhausted of prospects that will buy from you. Recruit more people so that you can draw their commission? most probably.

My fren couldn't sell the product, guess what the firm suggested? They asked my fren to put in money into the company. My fren don't wanna tell me the details. From what I read, seems that to buy the product themselves so that they can earn enough points to promote. Means buy promotions la, which is not compensated by salaries, just that they can draw higher commission. So what happens if still cannot sell?

Actually for my fren's firm, you need to maintain the sales level or what they call point value in order to stay at that position level. If you don't, your downlines who sell more than you will climb over you and you get demoted. Means that you cannot draw commission from the ones you recruited. So are you going to pump in more money into the firms? Probably the mlmers call it investment ba.. I call it willingly letting the firm suck you dry... Anyway, seems like my fren is putting in all his savings, I'm really worried for him. I seriously hope that he won't be conned or rather, no be influenced to put in more money.. It's like gambling, you keep thinking that you'll earn back the money some time, some day, just need to continue gambling ("investing" more money).. so what's the outcome? You continue losing and ended up losing more money, worst, you borrowed alot alot of money for the "investment" and ended up in heavy debts.. I hope that my fren will realised the Cons and lopeholes soon..

I'm not saying that all networking marketing is bad. Just that in Singapore, there are very few ethical network marketing firms. Many of them are breakaways from the existing network marketing firm..break and break and break, till mlm firms are so saturated. Many of the bosses do not really have very long experience in professional distribution and selling, many of them are young and main concern is profit.

Network marketing is a relatively modern and good concept, however mismanagement or misuse will cause alot of problems, especially socail and community problems. DW some other firms like NTI has appeared on newspapers a few times for recruting young, gullible, easily impressionable by money opportunities and then influence them negatively. Some of them condemn education and stress than education is not important.. according to some news articles. Some of those less ethical firms really exploit the concept to their benefits, from what I see...

Companies like NuSkin does not have negative feedback from the agents or people. It's a world-wide company, owns the product and product research and development, produce their product, charge resonable price. etc..

If you wanna do network marketing, be sure to find a good firm. A bad mlm firm will definately harm you more than it benefit you.....

Argh!! My voice didn't do my bidding today

2005-04-27T04:00:00.000+08:00

I went for choir today. More than 1 hr of music theory lesson and about 30 min of singing. Music theory was fine, just that I prefer to read on my on rather than having an group interative lesson. Highly interactive style of learning is good, but it doesn't work very well for me. Guess probably after having diarhea for 3 days, just too tired to think so much, and I'm still feeling abit of "diarhea".. haiz..

The 30 min singing session was embarrassing for me.. There i was anticipating quite happily to sing those high and beautiful tenor part of mine, but to my Disppoint and Horror I couldn't project my voice well, and my voice broke abit at the high notes. Falsetto also failed me. I was really shocked, didn't expected that. However the song still continued, and I paused awkwardly and stop singing my part. I don't know how to face the choir gers who were observing the guys singing.. Totally embarrassed. My throat was only a little tight and dry mah, I thought I could at least use my falsetto without any big problems. I was wrong. Argh!!! Maybe I was too dehydrated from 3 days of diarhea. Got to drink lots of water man..

Then song was halted, as it couldn't really continue without the tenor and baritone parts. Then the observer started to give comments. Ofcourse all the bad bad bad comments. So sad leh. I know they commented with a good intention, but it still pricked through my heart. The song would have been nicer if only I could carry my part off. It's not that I don't know my part.. I know, been singing in the toilet, and whenever I'm too free. Haiz. Then for "can't help falling in love" it's commented that I sounded too low and was requested to sing it in a finer tone and higher.. but seriously I would really prefer the solo part to be a few notes higher. Last week was praised by ZH for sounding nice for the solo, but i screwed it up today. My voice condition is really creating alot of havoc man.. Anyway, hee I'm ok now la.. haha.. no more hard feelings..heee, just that i usually treat comment seriously..=]

Got to lauch "First aid therapy for my voice" campaign liaoz.. drink more water, more herbal tea, pipagao etc. etc.. hehehe.. Hopefully I can use my voice normally by thurs. hee

After that went for dinner with my choiir folks.. 12 people leh.. haha so many ppl. We went to the LOUSY KFC near the CPF buidling, tampines.. It's really lousy loh.. Everything dun have.. only have their leftover kfc curry crunch and cripsy, which i don't like. I ordered the first 3 items all dun have.. so only have to resort to their promotion meal: the curry crunch chicken. Actually I shouldn't be eating that la, given my vocal condition. but hungry la.. Actually I should have to luobing and gang to take-away from Mac and eat in kfc.. haha.. but lazy to walk la.

Dinner with them was fun.. full of laughters and talking and laughing.. haha =P I realised that whenever I wait for 69 with choir.. it's usually a double-decker bus. So heng sia.. Too bad my mum offered to fetch me the past few weeks.. Actually last time I didn't want to go for dinner, it's because I dun wanna take a single-deck bus, which is like so common for 69. Actually it started when I fell when going down a bus and couldn't stand up.. which was like so long ago.. it made me feel unsafe taking bus, especially single-deck ones.. which the steps are much steeper. Very silly right.. I guess you won't understand what I was thinking and feeling la..

Guess it's time to step out of my phobia and join them for dinner for often, since it was fun.. hee=]

Hee, choir going shopping on sat. hee.. Yeah, finally some shopping for me. Hope i won't get tempted to buy alot of things.. Seriously I've many wants now, just that I'm controlling and blocking off alot of them.. But guess i need to get a new slipper soon.. Saw and strap coming out today. Cannot spend too much, next week going kbox with ex classmates, and I hope to save enough money to straighten my hair b4 term starts.. Vain right.. hehe..

Wah.. blogged so much liao.. got to stop.. *finger pls stop typing, brain pls stop recalling* hahahahahahahahahhaha.. Realised that this entry went through a mood swing.. haha.. crazy me..=P

okok.. I wanna get some sleep liao.. its 4.35 A.M nowz, i'm becoming vampire liao.. always sleeping at around dawnbreak.. hee..

Good nite my dear readers...and enjoy your slumber lang =]

Title less haha

2005-04-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

I just recovered from diarhea, haha, hopefully I've really recovered. Had been having diarhea for the past 2 days.. first day was the worst of all..Nearly got dehydrated and depleted of strength. Didn't know that diarhea is that bad, guess it's the first time ever i had genuine diarhea, hope it'll be the last one. hehe..
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Realise that no many people read my blog. At least I know that my best friends don't read my blog. So it's mainly read by my choir friends.. hee. Guess my buddies are too busy with their lives. I also realised that my buddies seldom chat with me on msn.. Perhaps coz all guys ba, so dun have the habit of chatting so much online.. somemore all of us were from boys' school. But the good news is whenever we meet up, we really chat and talk about all sorts of things. hee.
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I'm impressed with Elseve Lo'real Smooth intense range of hair care product. It really makes the hair shiny, smooth and less frizzy. I was a religious user of Dove Shampoo, after trying smooth intense, i decided to switch. hehe.

"Purchasing practice: Continously sourcing of new/potential suppliers or products."

after product evaluation and qualification, I've put it into my approved vendor list (AVL, or rather approved personal care list.. haha) and I've selected smooth intense for usage.
haha.. oh man, what am I doing, haha I'm actually practising the theories I've learnt in my previous sem subject, purchasing principles and practice.. haha Guess I'm really too bored..

Lo'real is really expert in marketing man. For the smooth intense campaign, guess they really understand the customers needs and wants, and develop the product and marketing accordingly. The rhetorical question on its labell is also not bad. Straight away identify the problems the targeted customers have with their hair, and provide and brief and clear description of how the shampoo and help solve it. The marketing mix: 4ps (product, price, place,promotion) also ties together nicely. Nice, effective, elegant product, affordable price i would say it's priced quite competitively along other brands, easily accessible as it's distributed throughout most supermarket in singapore and ofcourse nice promotion campaign, just the advertisement is powerful enough.

haha, what am i doing now, practising principles of marketing i took last sem.. haha Seriously, I'm glad that I took Principle of marketing, allowed me to look at the consumer market in a different light..

Guess, I better stop blogging for now... haha If not i'll start to talk about a whole list of subjects i took.. haha